May as well do 3 of them in one because it's all relevant I guess.
- Luna
- Roleplay
- Romance

it may be a hefty plurk but they kinda fit together so....

State of Luna

So I won't go too heavy into detail because I've been kinda talking about it as time goes by, but the overall rating is: not good. Earlier in the year, I really fucked up and I lost my job. So I had to scramble to find another one with little money to work with. I managed to find one a week later thankfully (and nothing too long), but when I started as a

host for a restaurant, i had a feeling it definitely wasn't going to work and had to find something else for a variety of reasons. Initially it was because going from a desk job basically to a standing job after a year or two really fucked with me, but soon more problems happened that I really needed out. To name the bigger stuff....

- I absolutely hated my manager because she was a complete asshole
- There were a lot of double standards that only applied to me and no one else
- They fucked up every paycheck I had there besides 2 of them. One being in between and the other being my last one
- I had more money jobless than I did working there

But the problem was that the job economy here is notoriously bad and there's literally nothing available that I can do. Anything I could do, I'd apply to, get interviews sometimes, and then get told they went with someone different. Everything else is like nursing/education/diploma stuff that I don't have. So it started to look like I was going to have to go

for a remote job. I eventually managed to just transfer over to the gift shop, where I am now. And the world of difference it made on my stress. One other thing I forgot to mention in the problems was that I've been broke/nearly broke at least 4 times in that time span. Things were stabilizing slowly and a bit better. I was getting hours and then recently

they cut hours back in the gift shop. Now instead of at least having 32 hrs a week, I went to maybe 7 in a week and a total of 4 days for two weeks. So i immediately tried to bring it up to my manager and she did everything she could to try to help and her boss flat out told her, "no we're not doing that." So I had to start job searching again because I had

40$ to survive for a week and a half until my dad put money in without me asking him to. Put in more applications, went throw the paper with my dad looking for options, saw none and went to go eat lunch and Subway needed help. It's not my ideal job but I just straight up need hours. So basically got the "fill the application and you pretty much have it" okay

So turned in the application and the next day after that, I got a call, but not for the Subway job that I expected. It was for a different job I applied for and did not expect to get. Set up and interview that day and got a call from subway pretty much offering me the job too. So with 2 job offers, there are options at least, but both pose possible problems.

This is recent here. So basically finished my hiring stuff for that job and going to do Subway part time hopefully, just in case the other job is way over my head like i think it might be. I'm still very much struggling with money and maybe with this job here (if i can handle it), I might be able to FINALLY GET MONEY BACK

So right now I'm playing the waiting game until they get back to me for hours and when to start before i give my two weeks and figure out all that bullshit. So here we are to the present of Luna. Very much still struggling but I'm hoping that things will get better for me. But i also feel like I might just be really stressed too. Who knows? Either way

i need a new job and It's a matter of working things out.

State of RP

That's all necessary information for this. So because I literally had 40$ to survive for a week and a half, i realized there was no way in hell I could afford to pay 25$ to renew my paid. So I hated the idea, but threw in a hiatus for whenever I got paid again to renew it. Well, Kelly had been very generous but it was only a normal paid and not having all of

my icons felt really off, so I waited. Before I could get to payday, Tarei asked if was up to boomerang for AC around the 22nd. I told her I would, but I can't renew my paid until I get paid later in the week and she basically said, "here, now you can" and gave me the points to do it. So come the 22nd (i think), I renewed my paid finally and took hiatus off.

I probably should have just kept it on because of how late it is, but instead decided I would rather try my best to make up lost time than to ride it out and run off of the hiatus. Probably stupid because I don't know if I'll make it or not because it is so late. (Mind you wanted to do all this on like... the 11th but could not...)

But I have 2 days left and want to make the most of it. The plus side (??) of not having many days at work now because of cut hrs is that I can have ample time to try to catch up. (i Hope). But financial crisis and constant job crisis has been so detrimental to my MH and motivation. I will not use that as an excuse for being so bad at RP stuff lately because

it's not necessarily right. I probably could have done better somehow and I have screwed around every so often. I'll just own up to me being bad lately. Instead of make excuses, I do want to just work hard to get better at doing what I need to do. That's not just for RP but also RL stuff like house things and work.

So we'll have to see what happens I guess, but I've been trying my best to be on top of things enough to try to catch up. I had one night a few nights ago that I was so tired that in between dozing off in my chair, I would stare at my tags for 30 mins to an hr completely head empty no thoughts. I tried to think of anything I could respond with and literally

nothing came to mind. I did 2 tags and went, "yeah, this isn't going to work." Tried to do things on the computer to keep me up and that wasn't working, so I finally got around to putting more house stuff away and that helped. Also, my kitchen table & counters are ACTUALLY CLEAN AND OPEN NOW. Mostly. Its progress rofl.

I keep on wanting to do posts or something... Or tag into stuff and then time got away from me. So I'm sort of at that bypass of.... I really don't want to drop Song because I love it, my CR, and G'raha but I also don't want to be useless either??

As of right now, I still do not plan on dropping, but it might end up happening anyway if I can't pony up the tags. I just hate being flakey and I've been doing my best to be better, but life is kicking my ass. Meanwhile I sit here and think, "You're not the only one with RL being a bitch to you and others are able to manage just fine. Why can't you?"

Which is.... not fair to me but also true at the same time? I know I'm being too hard on myself, so I'm doing my best not to fall into that hole, but I also don't want to be a problem for those around me either.....

So I think that's where I am now with RP??? It's me struggling through and through on RL and RP rofl

State of Romance

I have a few psls I desperately need to get back to, but also fall under "I can't afford to renew their paids." Even if I did, or someone gifted them, I still want to focus what attention I have to Song first and foremost. Someone randomly gifted Belgium a paid (I suspect Lynn rofl. She'd make the most sense), but gestures to this.

I do want to get back to them sooner than later, but for now I'm focusing Song and getting back on track there before I do that.

As far as Song goes, not much has changed. G'raha and Madhuri are both cute and gross with each other. He's very happy and living that married life with his new family. He has - however - gotten better about using the W word without getting flustered. He still feels sheepish about it because it doesn't feel real to some extent yet, but he can now use it

without freaking out over it. He proudly used it while talking to Emet LOL. Otherwise recently, Madhuri suplexed his doppelganger and dragged him back to free her rolanberry.

Their anniversary isn't until a few more months (April/May?), but that's coming up and that's really excited!!! I just really love them rofl. And their carbuncles.

I can try to help you with tags if you still need them for anything. I don't mind at all just also settling in for tags and dealing with stuff myself. totes get it.

take care of yourself first and foremost and do what is best for you. congrats on getting the two new jobs. praying and crossing fingers for you