TL;DR we're booted from the dining room and can't set up computers anywhere else in the shared space

Wtf????

We're trying to make the tiny shared bedroom work

yeah lol

Like... there's an office nobody is using for anything aside from storage but that was a hard no

tbh it's a lot of stuff

but person declared in charge of this house doesn't like us out here. Like... it stings because we're the ones that made the place even useable, we do a lot of cleaning around here, we help as much as we physically/mentally can, but

what this person says goes

so it's easier on everyone to just throw hands up and not argue

I'm missing a lot of school

literally missing the first week

and this is going to kind of interfere with my attempts at making money

but this isn't a safe space to argue

so I'm just going with it

it's Thanksgiving

tbh tho I would give almost anything to be able to sell this desktop computer and have a laptop

aeryn I just want you to be okay

nuzzles

It is a major blow to my mental state heh

I hate living on eggshells

but negl that's what this place kind of became when we started failing to find stable employment

Like! I legitimately am trying my hardest to find a job but bc we are having such awful luck it feels like we're being blamed hard at this point

being so heavily limited in options doesn't help me, and Rui's being run kind of ragged helping care for me

I tried sending Rui a FRQ but I think they never saw it. I just wish I knew how I could help in any way. This is not your fault.

/hugs

Onomatophobia: friend request?

ye!

If that, she definitely hasn't seen it bc she's so rarely on plurk u.u I poked her

Okie

NO ITS OK DONT WORRY

im just concerned for you

I don't know your full situation / history so I won't make assumptions but I can't imagine you're living well

nuzzles

nuzzles all of you

I'm so tired

I actually can't imagine how tired Rui must be. Because on top of working to get the bedroom ready for computers, she's been having to help make sure I don't just... drop

from various health things kfjsjfs

I just know that were the places switched, you'd be doing that and more for her

yeah... I so would

It's still hard ogdifksk not feeling bad

just be extra grateful! write her love letters, grab flowers from the patio for her, do the things you Can do for her!

huffhuff gladly. I do the thing uvu

I've been better about remembering to give physical affection like hand in hair. I struggle hard over physical contact bc of fibro, but she thrives on it, so it's like our... meeting halfway thing

she works on remembering to ask, I work on initiating more

Looks at that thing I showed you about internalized capitalism...

If the resentment spiked when you started failing to find work, it sounds like some of that is in play.

hey it's a start! I'm really bad w physical affection too so my husband reminds me :3