I am trying this new thing where I stop saying no to myself. it's really difficult, if you can believe it. I always sell my brand as being self-indulgent, but whatever you see has been diluted a thousand times before it gets posted. then inevitably I lose myself in the sea of "no" and it stops being fun to me.
I think being chronically stalked and harassed has only made my "no" problem even worse. because even if I am just making it for me, that destructive self-conscious thinking sneaks in eventually. but I'm terribly aware of this so I can at least work on it. idk if I can ever fully recover though.
