I'm going to be honest here and admit to things. I've made some mistakes. Some out of ignorance, and some that were just plain stupid. Things such as ignorant comments semingly spawned out of bigotry when I should have done my research first. (Like thoseon the Rubi game's FAQ.

Private plurking someone more than once over the same subject, when I should have let sleeping dogs lie, no matter how big the urge was to make excuses for my behavior and annoyingly apologize more than once.

Mistakes regarding the violation of boundaries. Being overenthusiastic and immature about a player's speed in tagging me on account of their real-life obligations and their preferenves in tagging me versus others.

It's your RP, your characters, and you should have the freedom to choose what you want to do with them. (Something I now know is a faux pas called "asking for tags.")

Assuming a player's interest in a romantic relationship with my characters without finding out their exact wishes first and foremost without being absolutely sure that that's what they wanted, and again, I didn't take into account their comfort ("ship-pushing.")

The latter two being things I did when I was new to Dreamwidth RP in the year 2020, that common sense should have told me were inappropriate.

But out of all of them, I swear that I have never had any malicious intent, nor have I ever meant to purposely hurt anyone. If I have ever wronged you, I'm sorry; deeply sorry. You are free to take my words as the truth or a complete lie. That is your decision and yours alone.

All I as is that you take the time to think on whether someone would choose to out themselves to the world with the intent to deceive.

I plan on doing what I can to learn and amend my childish mistakes. I am aware that, even though, at my age, I have no excuse for it, that I have some growing up to do.

I admit, I am now aware I am quite the "blubbering woman child," and I hope that someday I will have the capacity to mature, move past that, and prove it to the DWRP community. I know it's going to take time. Wounds and reputations don't heal that easily.

But know that I promise I am going to do my best.

I am going to go over with my therapist (Yes, I admit to being mentally ill, but I'm not using it as an excuse), and come to terms with how I am as a person and what I can do to better myself. I am going to ask that if, somehow, we meet out in the comms, bakerstreet, game, etc

Or even here on plurk, that you have the courtesy, and maturity of your own part to communicate with me and tell me if I'm doing something wrong, inconsiderate, or that makes you feel uncomfortable. I can't fix it or find a way to make it up to you, if I'm not aware that I'm making you uncomfortable.

To do this, please go to this journal specifically, and comment your feelings and ... All of the comments are screened, so don't be afraid to tell the truth. Tell me if you support what I intend to do and believe it, or tell me that you think I'm lying through my teeth so that

I can find other ways to prove that I'm not really the person I have made myself out to be. In other words, feel free to offer advice, criticism, or even just bitch me out if it will make you feel better.

I promise I will read them, but I admit I have taken some measures to protect myself and my mental health so that I can put this on the back burner and have a rest now and then.

I'm also going to step away from, and refrain from apping to games for awhile, save for the one public I'm in, and the sandbox that me and some real life friends play in, no matter how much fun I miss out on. Save circumstances such as closing. And even then, I will go into it with the knowledge that my reputation may preceed me.

You still always have the option of opting out of contact and RP with me.

I'm sure this is going to make it to Wankgate and/or RP Anons, whether as it is true to this source, or warped in some way. Regardless, I don't care either way.

I have a path and I'm going to follow it. If anons wish to continue to spread hate, show the colors of their own immaturity by hiding behind that wall of anonymity that is their prerogative and they're allowed to do so.

It's not my place to tell someone what they can or can't do. I won't even call out those that I'm sure are continuously using every little thing I do wrong to drag me through the mud. I don't plan on going there anyway to find out, nor will I hold any grudges of my own. I feel this is the first step towards maturing, along with this announcement.

This may seem like nothing but excuses for my behavior, but as I said before, I am speaking the truth from my own heart, and I hope that this comes across as mature as possible, because I'm trying and it was the only thing I could think of.

I ask that you please find it in your heart to replurk this, so that it can make it to as many people as possible and that they can consider making their own judgement over how this "Mina's" character really is. Again, I am truly sorry for anything I have done to you, or anyone else. I hope that someday you can forgive me.

If you have made it to the end of this, thank you for following along with my thoughts, feelings, and attempted pledges. I am truly grateful, and I hope that we can someday meet and enjoy this wonderful hobby together. But only if it is something you want to do.

If not, I wish you all the best in your rp endeavors.

Comments should now be on and this is replurkable.

I admit I have no idea what happened, but make sure you take care of yourself. This sort of shit is always rough

I don't see any option to replurk though, you may need to fiddle with settings

Ok, did I fix it?

I look forward to continuing to enjoy CR with you

I have replurked as you asked. I can say I can't recall ever having any issue with you, other than wishing to RP with you more

Sending you all the love.

Yep, all fixed now

yeah i can't speak to anyone else's experience, but for whatever it's worth i've had zero problems with you myself, which is more than i can say about a lot of the DWRP community >_>

(which isn't to say you've never had problems, just that i haven't experienced them myself, so maybe that's a sign of progress?)

It happens! A lot of stuff I did in genuine ignorance or because people were only hinting things in tags instead of clarifying OOC in plain terms were missed by me because I'm autistic. Don't give anons more than their worth, they're bored and public apologies will feed the gossip mill.

on the subject of anons, tho, i will say that WG is a bad place for bad people

WG is indeed shit

I never had any issues with you but sending in all the love