the thing is, I can easily like trick my brain into becoming desensitized to the price and accept it as normal and proceed even tho it's more money than I've ever spent in my life. and idk if that's normal and it's fine to accept this huge amount of money I (and my family) will pay for a wedding.

or, I can try to think more outside of the box and really try to save, but like, I DO have high standards and am a perfectionist so a lot of these professional venues are really more up my alley than something more budget in which creating the vibe is more up to me and it sounds exhausting. but also money