my brain is just. bees

to go back and just continue on like the world hasn't suffered such a monumental loss is unfathomable

if you are the praying type please pray for my patients and their families. I just hope they have some grace because. I am not 100%

and when I'm not 100% I cannot give 100%

Man, I know. I had such resentment at the world for just continuing when mine had gone all fucked up

In some ways going back to work helped for me, in the middle of grief, because I had the focus and the sheer chaos of hospital work that just, gave me something to focus it all on.

I hope it works that way for you too, bro

I'm definitely thinking of you

thanks all

YourOverlord: I've been doing a lot of reminiscing recently because Pana is the one that got me into RP as much as I was

we had so much fun with the trek/vor mashup

IT WAS SO GOOD

I'm so glad we fell in. What a great pile of characters and plot

god I miss it. some of those cross canon interactions are just. gold

Right. PSLs are good, and canon aus are great, but there's something about the lightning that can happen in jamjar that brings out parts of characters you could never predict

Holding you in my thoughts, friend. And the family, too.

thanks everyone

futuremachines: thank you. also I'm still giddy we're reconnected

I understand that feeling well. I'm so very sorry

Me too, friend. Me too. Spent yesterday with a close friend IRL just listening to music she would introduce me to, crying and remembering the wild au's we had. chatting about you, too. it was nice. It's really nice to be in your life again <3

I'm hold you in my thoughts. Really hope people irl, work and the like, can give you all the space and support you so thoroughly deserve and need.

futuremachines: ahh I'm so delighted that you two found each other again

speaksincolor:

I hope you're doing okay. Thinking of you.