oh no what happened? /sends hugs?

just. depression, man. so bad yesterday i was unable to leave the house to go to work. like, i brushed my teeth, took my meds, and then stood there thinking about every step involved in getting from there to walking through the door at work, and i fuckin. couldn't. i got back into bed, texted my manager (already half an hour into my shift)

that i couldn't make it, and then cried

i'm at that low point in the depression cycle where i have zero self-motivation or self-interest, but external motivation could still work. i need to remember that being late etc puts the burden on my coworkers

can't do it for me, can maybe do it for them

:< also you're loved. dunno if that helps, but

i love you too