day 2 of still no heat, still no power in freezing temps, have to keep cycling off my phone to try and make it last so I can't do literally anything or even talk to anyone

I'm hungry and I'm painfully cold and I'm stressed beyond reason

this month has been hell, starting with me getting so insanely sick last month's end that I had to drag my corpse to the airport for a week and a half trip where I was basically out cold 80% of the time— after my debit card was stolen, and then the replacement card was stolen out of my mailbox while I was away—

came home in the middle of the last freezing power outage, had a stroke scare on the heels of that, only to find out that it was anemia just beating me in

my replacement credit card still hasn't come in yet so I can only order necessities via online payments through my bank account, and still have only been partially reimbursed for what was lost

and now this

I don't know what to do

I don't know how to cope with this anymore

I feel like I'm waiting for the moment when everything just levels out and it's not coming

so realistically all I can do is drag myself up and keep going

t's honestly amazing that 40k people have their heating and electricity back after how bad the damage was, and I know tomorrow I'll be out on the road again so it doesn't really matter now, but it sucks so bad to be sitting up crying again because I'm too miserable to even sleep and am just burning my last battery % trying to vent it out

with no outlets and no relief

knowing that this stress is going to probably lead to another flare spike, where I won't be able to function again, where I can't get a single damn thing done, and then my platelets drop and my b12 bites it and I get sick and—

on and on it goes

I just thought at least these last three days would be good and I'd feel human again

but the joke's on me

ugh

like dead of night fires that look like daylight

ah, 1% battery, damn

oh love I'm thinking of you ;;

i'm so sorry things are so hard

oh, hon, I'm so sorry

I've been there with the long power outage, of not with the health issues on top, and it's absolutely hell - it's scary and miserable and somehow boring as fuck. with everything else, it sounds like a waking nightmare

if there's anything we can do from afar, please let us know. and I'll be going that you finally get a break soon, because you deserve one

stay safe

oh gosh

aw man. I’m sorry. what a miserable time.

i'm so fucking sorry, friend. please lemme know if i can do anything to help. like dove said, i've been stuck in the middle of a bad freeze before, and it's hell. i'm hoping everything is okay

/gentle hugs

ah honey, i am so sorry. if there is anything i can do i am there, even if it’s just sending doordash or somethin’

hang in there hon. wish I could help

i'm so so so sorry this is happening to you, this is awful and i hope things get better

Baby do you have a kofi or a gofundme

Pls gib links

I’m so sorry you’re going through this

Oh god ahhh how awful, I hate that you’re dealing with this

Is there any way you can safely hang somewhere else?

if you have a kofi or something let me know? this fucking sucks and if there's anything i can do, i'm here

jesus fuck I'm so sorry you're really going through it

echoing the above I know you weren't angling for this, but we wanna help even if it's something small

^ agreed with everyone else, and i hope getting in some chill time helps :c

I'm liking so I can find this later esp if you do post some links where we can kick you some bucks

cripes this sucks

damn, those fires. i hope this weekend gives you a little relief

for real hope you can take a load off and decompress this is more than a lot

holy shit honey, you've really been in the weeds

oh honey i'm so sorry

Oh my god i’m so sorry, I hope things turn around soon and your replacement card makes it to you quickly. I wish I was in a position to help as much as I wish I could. When you’re able to read these replies, I hope you have something to link for us to help with what we can. Please stay safe, I hope this all passes quickly.

ugh ty friendos.... :'<

I don't know what to say, I'm beyond overwhelmed and it's been such a whirlwind that I wound up just collapsing last night once we made it to a nice warm place where I could finally sleep after two days of barely 2 hrs at a time, so I'm sorry for being late to come back here but this is so incredibly sweet

I needed a place to vent out of desperation and just didn't expect so much thoughtfulness or

just anything at all really as I was hitting the limit of my stride but thank you, so much

I’m so glad you were able to rest

good god, me too, lmao

grips hand

yeah, no worries, very glad to hear you got rest in a warm spot

so happy you're doing a little better. that's all that matters, no need to apologize

and also I'm not linking this because I want or need anything, but because I know some of y'all are clever enough to outsmart my attempts not to anyways, lol, so here's my kofi but seriously, I'm okay now, I mean it https://ko-fi.com/...

I'm gonna go breathe in some fresh air and remember how to not be a shambling mess but thank you again

shaking all this off so I can come back stronger

and maybe also better at giving a thousand crushing hugs

oh man i'm so glad things are a bit better

holds you

Receive HUG

Glad you got to rest

grips!

forced out to sea just to get cozy

hope you can find some hill time

well, chill time. but maybe climb a hill i guess if there is one

coba1t: squeezes you :{

ilu and i hope you can rest comfortably

man alive I'm glad you were able to get some rest, and I hope life calms tf down soon

grasp hand tightly