HELLO friends it has been a literal eternity
ok closer to a month but still
belated thank you for all the kind af messages when I was at my physical limit
they meant a whole hell of a lot to me despite not having the ability to reply for being essentially a mobile (wilting) potted plant
for real September has become such a reliable hellscape for me ever since the start of covid, and I was in real deep low/stress hours that I couldn't shake on my own (which thankfully I didn't have to, and I'm forever lucky for that)
but it also meant I needed a hard break just to wrestle with both health and the inevitable mental health deadly duo that comes from chronic bs
SO
long story short: I'm better! I'm back, I'm (mostly) rested and functional enough that I'm ready to love again return to goofing off, generally existing, and knocking fantasy everything around in full force
I owe the biggest apologies to everyone I wound up leaving hanging, and I'll come back to poring over game stuff tonight after work (I'll make a separate plurk for that tho, just to keep all those ducks in a tidy row, etc)
sometimes everything forces you to stop
Shadowesque 
for fucking real tho
for fucking real tho
honestly looking back, I think if I'd kept on trying to juggle everything instead of receding back into comfort for a bit, I'd be worse off now
and on the brighter side of things, Kit sent over the sweetest bday gifts which I'm still not over (LOOK AT MY BOY) 
I still need to dewrinkle it from packing shh
and the wildfire smoke here has cleared up so no more suffering in a house w no ventilation so I can finally stop being restless every night
other than that it's been p calm and quiet (which is nice), so I hope you guys have been doing ok overall
Welcome back! I missed you and I'm so so glad things are less sucky 
good!! i'm glad to hear it <3
keese
I'm glad to see you're feeling better <3
HELLO u were missed
welcome back and hehe i'm still so glad you like them
reaches in here to grasp hand
Welcome back to life
Reaches out with both hands to gently touch
sometimes you gotta hyper beam and recharge
thinking of you always even when i disappear from plurk for 4million yrs, im glad you're feeling better!!
Welcome back!
welcome back, friend
thanks fam! real good 2 be back
the real problem is going to be picking what to stick the little rat lads on that I won't immediately go 'ah fuck no wait I could've put it on [literally any other object]' a la me saving page dividers from school that I plastered my sailor moon stickers to and didn't want to lose
shambolism lmf for real tho
avali! 
hanshi us just tag teaming in and out of existence for extended swaths of time at this point to keep ourselves from melting into puddles lmfao
It sounds like real life I hate it thx 
my face this morning
last night/today has been a nightmare, I've taken so many painkillers but they might as well have been sugar pills; it's like I took nothing at all and my bones are on fire, I've been tired for hours and can't sleep bc of the pain
god the WORST
nausea is eating me alive and I can't tell if it's because of this inflammation, or from just cramming in medicine like tic tacs, but I'm going to make my 6383689th attempt at resting, fingers crossed something gives
the actual worst
I would like it to n o t
KLSDJFlk god that's a mood
holds your hands, i hope you feel better soon
ughhh fingers crossed that you can get some rest
oh fuck, body!!!
I hope it lets you rest
hang in there. ♥
Friend I’m so sorry how awful
c'mon body cut it out
damn man thinkin of you, pills do your jobs please??
shaking your body until it cuts this out, metaphorically, literally seems unhelpful. this sound horrendous
ah honey no
today was better finally!
I think it was definitely the smoke making my inflammatory response to being sick worse
ugh ty ty
the air cleared this morning and I'm still fatigued as hell, but it's just an ocean of difference already
love to hear this
whips out a giant fan and starts wiffing all the smoke away
lmfao ty
true heroism
excellent, glad you're having a good one