I’ve ignored this up till now because I didn’t think Zack would be open to it. he’s never alluded to anything like it in a way that I took seriously. But yesterday something was said pretty plainly to me.

So of course we had a conversation about it and I told him we’re going to eventually have to address it. But we had a conversation about it earlier this week where he made it sound like maybe he would be open to something.

Our conclusion between the two of us was that we wouldn’t want to get into anything with someone we already had a close friendship with.

But we’re still going on a vacation with these people, and we still like flirting with them. All of our kids will be there so it won’t be too awkward I don’t think. And I know they’d be fine with us if nothing ever happened

But I’ve spent all day today in the blush of like knowing someone has a crush on me. It feels really nice? And also slowly reckoning with the idea that we really are possibly open to poly relationships? And how eventually that could lead to expressing my queerness in a way I’ve never done before

Anyway, this entire stream of consciousness has been done via speech to text so if there’s typos, my apologies.

Okay so turns out it’s really hard not to flirt with someone who’s flirting with you 😂😂 just had to send a pm that read “quit flirting with me in the group chat” because we were about to get way too obvious for that particular group

It’s actually going to be difficult to keep this totally platonic. And Zack is napping before a stressful midnight shift so I have to wait till later to send him screenshots