I’ll admit that I’m being a little anxious when I’m not around him. The tiny bit of insecurity is always in the back of my head- when he’s not texting back immediately; or when he’s only replying a short sentence; etc. But instead of forcefully pushing down my anxiety, I’m learning to ask myself: what happened

Why am I feeling this
What triggers me
Does it make sense

If I choose to suppress my feeling, I may feel better for a while, but eventually all the fear and insecurities will break out from the surface and destroy everything. This is unhealthy and I need to change that. Having the conscious and awareness to my emotion and feelings help me organise and process my thoughts.

Just read somewhere about people being obsessed with the idea of ‘The One’ and always fearful about failing a relationship. An interesting examples used is driving. There’re car accidents happening every minute everywhere, some of them even deadly. But it’ll be absurd if we stop driving altogether out of the fear of getting killed on the road.

There are so many ways we can do to make driving safe like having our cars checked regularly, comply with all the rules, etc. Still, if an accident meant to happen, it happens. That’s only so much you can do to control the situation. Anything other than that is fate, I’ll assume.

Same as relationship, we know what makes better relationship. And the best we can do is to enjoy the moment and love each other and show up for each other and have difficult conversations when it’s needed instead of escaping when things get hard. We know the rules and all the methods.

But it’s impossible to predict or control the future. There could be countless possibilities leading to a fail relationship and you’ll never know.

Why even bother to worry?