when you just lay in bed, eat chocolate and cry

I'm so tired

tired of doing everything, or being expected to do everything

and when I communicate it's not taken seriously

then this happens

then I'm okay cause I've cried it out

I have to take over this volunteer thing becausethe lady who is doing it is having surgery so I said I would

I am trying to plan my step dad's 50th birthday party and my brother is making me plan his birthday

my house is a mess

I just want to work without getting overwhelmed or feel miserable

stupid taxes aren't coming in for another 16 weeks, they don't know when they are going to make a decision on Skyler's SSDI APPEAL

I can't miss work but I keep having panic attacks or feeling miserable because I'm so tired of taking inbound calls

I was going to try to take some coder courses so I could become a medical coder/biller and then be guaranteed to find a job

but that costs money

I'm getting self conscious and stupidly upset about stuff that is pointless to get upset about

that's a lot to take over, so it makes sense you're overloaded ;;

I'm tired because I can't sleep. I can't sleep because I'm stressed and my medicine had to be changed because it wasn't working as well, which also added into the lack of sleep

i hope this new one works

thank you

I'm just emotional and exhausted

oh and I have a GI bleed

which is just great

oh no ;;

I feel like when I ask for help there's no reason for me to. I also and either appointments get cancelled, that's not the right person talk to, it's delayed because we're still in a pandemic, I don't qualify

or "That'll be 200 hundred dollars"

That’s ridiculous what the fuck

so I just go "why do I bother."

the problem with your love language being acts of service is that you want people to help or notice and they don't without you communicating (people can't read minds) but then when you do communicate and it's just thrown back in your face, you just....stop communicating

the problem with being ADHD is people have told you your whole life to stop being so ADHD, so you don't have confidence and you don't speak up because you feel like you're always the problem

again, I started this new dose and I just need to vent and be weepy

all of your feelings are very valid, and venting can be healthy. be as weepy as you want to be and we're still here for you

thank you ;;

and thank you trevenant:

You’re completely valid and it’s ok, you can’t have everything bottled up

I do feel a little better venting

and it's not that I don't have help! some good things have happened but I'm still overwhelmed and tired

Definitely understandable being overwhelmed with all of that, glad you've at least let it out and vented a bit. I really hope things pick up somehow, I'm so sorry it's been like this. hugs tight Here if you need anything.