I think I need to let him know how I feel. I like being around him and I like the way we care for each other and spend time with each other.

Last time he said he think it’s about time to dtr. Also being warned that I wouldn’t be waiting forever. And I don’t want him to do it over the phone. That’s why when we met last Monday, I was kinda expecting he’d ask but he didn’t

We had a good time tgt. And it’s really good that we actually spent some time snuggling. I was happy.

Until last night he mentioned himself as ‘potential bf’ again and I was a bit triggered coz i started wondering when would he tear that potential label off and ask me

He knows that he only needs to be the one who ask. I don’t need grand gesture and anything.

So he’s well aware that we ain’t official. But he treats me as if we are official. So why is he still hesitating?

I don’t want to push him and put pressure on him. But I also don’t want to set my needs aside. This is important to me and make me feel uncomfortable about how this thing is going.

Can’t help myself wondering what if I say it and he decides to give up because he’s just not ready yet.

But I guess if this happens I need to accept it as it is. Because I promised myself not to prioritise other ppl’s needs over my own well-being anymore. I want to voice out what I need, especially when it’s not sth I want to compromise.

As much as I like him, if he can’t even promise me with this level of commitment, what’s the point of it.

But first I think I’d like to know his concern before me jumping into conclusion and accusing him. I want to live up to my own standard of treating things seriously and thoroughly like a mature adult. Don’t want to let my emotion takes the wheel and fuck things up.

Haha I don’t even know why I’m mentally preparing myself as if I’m gonna break up with someone.