curlie•bear
2022-04-23T20:15:47.000Z
I had a mental breakdown so we pushed sonic to tomorrow. we did still go out and do some stuff
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curlie•bear
2022-04-23T20:16:02.000Z
I'm just feeling lonely and overwhelmed
𝒻𝑜𝓊𝓇 𝑒𝓎𝑒𝓈
2022-04-23T20:16:14.000Z
curlie•bear
2022-04-23T20:16:15.000Z
I still feel stupid and like I wanna cry
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𝒻𝑜𝓊𝓇 𝑒𝓎𝑒𝓈
2022-04-23T20:16:32.000Z
brains and emotions blow, i'm sorry you're having a day :<
curlie•bear
2022-04-23T20:17:31.000Z
but long story short: I got very used to it being just Skyler and I got a long time, but when she started making new friends I was feeling lonely. then I went to the drag show; it was supposed to be my bestie and I but she gets in the car and says
curlie•bear
2022-04-23T20:17:49.000Z
her friend from work is coming too
ht is spooky 👻🌸
2022-04-23T20:18:24.000Z
curlie•bear
2022-04-23T20:18:32.000Z
which okay, in the moment I tried to be positive, but considering it was something we were doing for my birthday it felt kind of....rude and inconsiderate
curlie•bear
2022-04-23T20:19:31.000Z
even though I was hurt I tried to engage in conversation but it was mostly of them talking about their work drama and such so I felt kind of like a third wheel ..... at the thing that was supposed to be for me
curlie•bear
2022-04-23T20:20:08.000Z
but then I thought I was just being stupid and childish and my friend isn't responsible for my feelings so I just holed it up
curlie•bear
2022-04-23T20:21:46.000Z
then something happened this morning that was very kind and helpful but I misunderstood the intention.
curlie•bear
2022-04-23T20:22:13.000Z
because Ive been bottling up my loneliness as just being jealous and childish
curlie•bear
2022-04-23T20:23:23.000Z
so I just ollied because I got overwhelmed and felt stupid, but I still feel like I'm encroaching on a space that is not for me
curlie•bear
2022-04-23T20:24:58.000Z
but I'm taking a break from discord servers, but I'm gonna be able to be pmd
curlie•bear
2022-04-23T20:26:23.000Z
and I'll join chill activities
curlie•bear
2022-04-23T20:27:18.000Z
I just have a lot of things I want to do but I don't have many irl friends who are interested
curlie•bear
2022-04-23T20:28:36.000Z
i just wish I could get it out of my brain that people don't want me around and that I have nothing of value to offer
curlie•bear
2022-04-23T20:29:44.000Z
because at the end of the day, I feel like I don't fit in anywhere
curlie•bear
2022-04-23T20:29:56.000Z
AND ITS SO STUPID AND I HATE IT
curlie•bear
2022-04-23T20:31:54.000Z
idk
curlie•bear
2022-04-23T20:32:01.000Z
I hate my brain
curlie•bear
2022-04-23T20:32:07.000Z
and allergies
𝒻𝑜𝓊𝓇 𝑒𝓎𝑒𝓈
2022-04-23T20:35:10.000Z
that was super rude of them yeah
𝒻𝑜𝓊𝓇 𝑒𝓎𝑒𝓈
2022-04-23T20:35:24.000Z
my bestie does shit like that too. she doesn't live here anymore, but even when she comes to visit she pulls shit like that
𝒻𝑜𝓊𝓇 𝑒𝓎𝑒𝓈
2022-04-23T20:35:37.000Z
and i know what it's like to not have friends in the area. I don't have any here, either
𝒻𝑜𝓊𝓇 𝑒𝓎𝑒𝓈
2022-04-23T20:35:55.000Z
just know that you are definitely wanted 8D I enjoy talking to you and playing games with you and if we lived closer i'd come and see u
curlie•bear
2022-04-23T20:36:12.000Z
;_; thank u
curlie•bear
2022-04-23T20:36:44.000Z
and like my volunteering stuff is picking back up again but....my friends there make it a part of their personality and I don't
curlie•bear
2022-04-23T20:38:02.000Z
I just have the most tanked self esteem so I just get self conscious about my emotions
ɪᴄʜɪ ᴛʜᴇ ᴡɪᴛᴄʜ✨
2022-04-23T20:40:39.000Z
That’s really rude of them ;;
ɪᴄʜɪ ᴛʜᴇ ᴡɪᴛᴄʜ✨
2022-04-23T20:41:16.000Z
𝒻𝑜𝓊𝓇 𝑒𝓎𝑒𝓈
2022-04-23T20:41:48.000Z
HUGS YOU
curlie•bear
2022-04-23T20:42:56.000Z
hugs y'all too!!!
siwas ✨
2022-04-23T20:49:17.000Z
curlie•bear
2022-04-23T21:09:42.000Z
HIKIKOMORTIS
2022-04-23T21:30:36.000Z
HIKIKOMORTIS
2022-04-23T21:31:27.000Z 2022-04-23T21:31:34.000Z
Whether the outing is for you or not, it’s considerate to ask all involved parties before bringing an additional person along.
curieosity。
2022-04-23T22:02:12.000Z
curlie•bear
2022-04-23T22:26:50.000Z
I thought so too but
curlie•bear
2022-04-23T22:26:59.000Z
idk I thought maybe I was being silly
HIKIKOMORTIS
2022-04-23T22:31:26.000Z
Not at all.
wooper.
2022-04-23T23:18:34.000Z
Definitely not silly. hugs tight
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