some days are harder than others. And it's trying to come up with a list of reasons to keep going as opposed to trying to just give in and let nature take its course.
coming back to this because I realised that even with this new job, and a routine, when I drive to work and let mind wander for a bit, I keep thinking of a way out and making the sadness stop.
And I'll talk and laugh with people, but when the laughter dies out, and I'm left on my own, I go back to just wanting out, a way out of this mind, this body, this life. I just want the sadness which has no reason behind it, to stop.
