so like. i didn't go into work today planning to ragequit and leave in the middle of the day, but. shit happens? the training and support for new employees has been a joke, i was pushed into responsibilities i was not ready for, and i've been stressed and miserable for the past month. today was just a breaking point
(moneywise btw i'm not immediately worried - just paid my cellphone, have plenty of food, and discovered when i applied for rental assistance to cover my COVID absence that i made so little i qualified for 100% coverage through late March, so i fucking took it lol)
today i needed to work on a very, very large order and could not do that and answer the phone at the same time bc ADHD, it would have led me to making a shit ton of little mistakes as i struggled to refocus after every call
the phones got very busy bc they're understaffed and one of my coworkers actually came over to yell at me about not being on the phones (which btw i had in fact discussed with the owner)
i was upset enough after that to be sick to my stomach for the next hour, and it really clarified and made me think about the fact that shit was just going to keeping sucking at that place. i've already done the "stay at miserable fucking workplace for too long" thing, and i'm not doing it again. i also thought about the fact that my rent is covered
for a while yet
i walked into the owner's office and quit
(i also handed over the rest of that big ordered and explained a bit about it, no point in shafting that customer)
i said goodbye to the people i'd gotten to know a little and to like, and three of them were just like "yes girl get the fuck out" because i was basically living their dreams lol
i think this is going to become a theme there - the pressure is insane and the owner hasn't done shit to alleviate it
that's what happened at the place i stayed too long at - one person quit and it sparked an exodus. that time i was one of the last to go (because there was almost no one left, ha)
anyway, i'm gonna take the weekend to decompress and then start spamming applications on Indeed again
ah geez. yah if your fellow employees are congradulating you for getting out that's a problem
yyyyyyep
WHOOF
Good on you getting out.
Thanks. it was very not good, like messing with my mental health to the point i was thinking about having my antidepressant dosage increased not good
anyway i've already applied to like half a dozen jobs, i guess i can do that and decompress at the same time