i at least see and feel myself growing in skill but To whaT END!!

me @ me (wrt but what do u have to show for how all u do is draw)

and like i’m not motivated by feedback or praise cuz i’m always so obscure and i don’t take that as a comment on my skill or storytelling ... it’s mostly cuz it’s highly niche and i don’t do mindful things like POST WHEN PPL ARE AWAKE or etc... i’m an impulse monster

but it makes ME feel good when i post a bunch of shit even if i know no ones like particularly invested cuz it’s like a self affirmation/lineup that’s like WOW! I ACCOMPLISHED MANY

but m. i just. g. dies under WIPs like i have my whole life

tldr all i do is spuddle... so frustrating