Today isn't a bad day, but I feel really overwhelmed. I'm trying to turn mom and check to make sure she's not wet at all (she's got open sores on her butt that we have to protect and keep clean), and I just don't really know what I'm doing.
Ed (step-dad) is here and will help, but he just doesn't have a lot of strength. He also didn't really listen or help when our family friend (a hospice nurse) was talking me through what to do
so it's on me and even though mom is tiny, I'm not super strong and also really still figuring this out. And I'm afraid to mess up, because it doesn't take much to make those sores worse and to cause an infection that could steal our time so much faster
I'm trying to clean all the laundry and keep her comfortable. We're having a family meeting at 7pm (my request) so we can talk about making sure she's regularly turned and clean and getting assistance so it isn't always me doing it. Wish me luck. Hopefully we'll figure out something to make this easier
We have a caretaker, but she had yesterday off (funeral) and she doesn't usually work weekends. She's going to check in tomorrow because she knows the sores are bad, but I wish I had more hour-by-hour help