yeah for sure

Could be an anxiety response, with none of the other anxiety shit so I can’t even be like yup, I’m anxious, but this whole weekend time has felt super off

And the last two days I’ve been cold, though today is worse. It’s like somebody dunked my head in I’ve cold water and set an aircon to blow directly on me

Ice*

And I’ve hit a point where it feels like more effort than it’s worth to form words and I’ve fully checked out

i don't know if i've ever gotten cold but definitely loss of all sense of how time passing should feel is up there

The way I tend to describe dissociation is it's like your mental 'camera' is off

The only actual emotion I feel is faint irritation at the things people are saying today.

You're piloting your body but your viewpoint camera feels like it's 2 feet to the left

i've had times where my body acted as if it were cold but like. i had no real reason to be cold. usually i take hot baths when that happens... just kind of auto-pilot to my go-to anxiety/disassociative soothing things

I’ve got several more hours of work

svensational: that’s why I’m not sure, cause I still feel like I’m firmly in my body? But it feels like my internal clock is hoooouuurs ahead of where it should be

I’m having trouble keeping track (more than usual) of what tables I’ve been on and even a consistent busy table feels like actual molasses

Yesterday my body was telling me it was midnight before it even hit nine

yeah I would say that's definitely signs of dissociating

I keep waking up hours before my normal time feeling a creeping “overslept!” sensation.

This last hour I hit my Done point. The only thing I want in life is to go home and not exist for awhile

Jesus fuck, how is my break already over?

yeah that sounds like dissociation

if you start just losing all sense of time

Life doesn’t quite feel as real as it usually does

yup that sounds like your brain's launched into space

yeah disassociating is a Bit Different for everyone but the feeling loss of time and two steps removed is v common

I’ve reached the point where I feel like if I wanted to I could pull myself out of it and bounce back to my normal energy.

I don’t want to, but I could, so that’s probably reassuring

Still fucking cold tho

How is it not two yet

I now know what the boy felt like when he got a shard of the snow queen’s mirror in his eye. Raw, and like the world will never be warm again.

I'm always cold even when I'm not dissociating; if you take antidepressants, I've heard they can mess with your ability to regulate your body temperature?

+1 to losing sense of time tho

I'm in a basement suite so the cold is extra bad, I've got a fleece throw and an electric shawl for when I'm working at my desk, i tend to use them even in the summer

plus my kotatsu but sitting on the floor is rough after a while even with my rocker chair

I've started (within the past four months) getting horrifically cold and teeth chattering chilled post mental breaks

like my body has decided not producing heat anymore is a way to calm down

for me it felt like time had stopped and that nothing was real

and i remember trying to ground myself with things like, brushing my teeth and nothing seemed to get through to me, i was almost numb

but also terrified

and i had another instance that was actually different, i only remember being in the middle of a conversation and suddenly it was like i was Not There

i knew what was happening but i couldn't even hear myself speak

so it can differ even in one person in my experience

/hugs everyone

Let’s hear it for our brains, guys /toasts tiredly

I feel better today, got some sleep finally