Asking for a friend

i think it's one of those 'it depends', the panic attacks i've had have lasted an hour at most but theyre also like. super fucking intense

i did have a breakdown that lasted like 3 hours once but that was some time ago

It’s been a little over 24 hours and I’m still out of it

I can barely find anything about the days following an attack. Google just gives me advice about the immediate moment

it is not uncommon to be suffering side effects much later. I will say your descriptions of the world specifically last night sounded like you may have been disassociating

At least it is normal

I feel muted

Gray

Managed more sleep but still tired

I’m a little weirded out that it’s still only Tuesday? Feels like it should be later already

My next psych appointment is literally tonight so I’m going to bring it up for sure.

oh good, you can have access to professional answering the questions

you're doing well holding up and looking at yourself <3

I had immediate support and I guess a metric fuckton of experience analyzing how I feel and why. I did also make sure to eat and am trying to stay hydrated. Although I did forget my medication the last two days so I’m sure that’s not helping.

....also thank you. I like being told I’m doing good.

AaAAAH well, you are. <3

<3

DnD tonight, but I have a legit feeling of residual anxiety about it not happening because I haven’t heard from my uncle whether or not he’s definitely coming over to game

I’m assuming that tight feeling is a sign I’ve got a long way to go still

Things like this normally wouldn’t upset me this much

that's because your emotional walls crumbled

and you're burning through your energy to try to rebuild them but they are paper thin

/sighs what a drag

Glad I’m not going through it alone

/nods

Oof, cannot even scroll feeds right now. Toospund sensitive. ;n;

Too sound* wtf phone, how

No dnd tonight. I guess I must’ve known.

Uncle’s sick and doesn’t wanna spread it

Was supposed to see my best friend today. She should have just gotten back from a nearly month long vacation but I haven’t heard anything from her yet and we barely talked the whole time and I feel so desperately onely and adrift right now

Didn’t end up doing anything fun with my sister yesterday either and I’m so tired of being the one to always say ‘we should do the thing, let’s do something’ because I start to feel annoying if I ask multiple times cause we’re all forgetful little shits

Sometimes I feel like the most important people in my life don’t feel that strongly about me, cause they don’t seem bothered if we aren’t spending time together...

I am spiraling. Might take one of my sleeping pills and try to sleep before it gets worse

Haven’t felt like this in a long time

Feel like I’m living in a bubble of irl silence.

Psych did provide a Xanax script in case of future attacks, plus some advice. We’re gonna give a standard three month until my next appointment but she did tell me to call for something earlier if anything changes for the worst

Feel like I need to be surrounded by people right now, but I can’t burden someone with my neediness today

did your psych recommend you go to a clinic or somewhere with an ekg? it's rare, but panic attacks can have some shared symptoms with heart problems so usually it's suggested to get checked just to be safe

esp if you're afab

Ah, no. I think because this issue was (so far) such an extenuating circumstance and not something I’m ever close to having normally? I don’t know. If it happens again I’ll definitely make a note of that

gotcha, that's... well not good, but reassuring. sorta.