while i'm here, i want to apologize for my last RP related plurk from a few weeks back. i threw a tantrum because all of this bitterness and frustration at myself and my impotence boiled over. i apologize for my behavior.
i was too emotional to consider my actions, and i'll try to be more mindful.
if anyone is willing to give me concrit about IC or OOC, i welcome it.
i miss RP terribly and have been absolutely miserable without it.
i was suffering before because i felt disconnected and impotent and irrevelant, but leaving only made those feelings worse. i don't feel relief from pressure.
i just don't know how to fix where i am. i'm creatively blocked in more ways than one.