More like "I wasn't able to do anything when you were falling apart"
I was in tears while composing that message

I have so many what ifs

What if our relationship was "normal"
Then things would've end up differently

What if I mustered up the courage to come out then you wouldn't have such thoughts in the first place

What if I was more reliable
Then you would've opened up to me more about your problems and wouldn't shoulder everything yourself

"You were important more than anything else"
But I wasn't able to convey it more

I realized that I was one of those people na "puro salita pero walang gawa"

Sorry that you wasted your time on someone like me