lol remember when my aunt died in august? and then my cousin shortly after??

turns out 2020 wasn’t done taking family members from me. my other aunt passed away and basically i fucking hate this year and wish it was over

i was trying to do NaNo and that’s out the window, i can barely focus on nothing

i have hella old tags sitting in my inbox because even before my aunt passed i was battling the Big Sad because of quarantine and the weather, losing a friend because she supported Trump like what the fuck??

we also basically learned this summer how bad my aunts cancer was and then within the last like three weeks we learned it was worse than we thought and then well, you get the idea

anyway, all i’ve been able to think the last like four months is that i’m tired. i’m just so fucking tired.

tbh i needed to put this somewhere, so pls don’t feel bad or weird about this. i’m fine, like i’m fucked up but i’ll be fine. plurk has become my emotional unloading zone lol sorry??? it’s just easier to do here idk.

i don’t know that i owe anyone on my plurk tags...... but if i do sorry and i might be able to get to them later but really i’m just taking the days as they come.

here’s a meme that’s in the spirit of this plurk thanks if u got this far lol