someone: hey shouldn't you get a therapist

me: hey my insurance is gonna run out and my therapist ive had since i was 12 cant see me bc of covid and im not therapist shopping bc most of them don't know how to deal with severe trauma and borderline and osdd AND an eating disorder so im trying my BEST THANKS

like ive has therapists in the past 2 years say to my FACE "sorry you're way too complicated i don't feel comfortable trying to help you this is a case i have never seen before"

julianna gave me a number to call and was very "!!!!" and i finally explained to her like "dude " and she's like "oh...no i understand " i cant believe shes sick now too

i think woof is falling back into me bc i feel very unusually....violent rn