holy god like yeah i have jenny and woof now im no longer integrated i still get delusions i still get flashbacks i still get panic attacks i still self harm v occasionally but thank god im not that sick anymore

the only thing i am admitting here bc there is only one other place i can is that my eating disorder got Bad/is Bad. im dieting/fasting again and im down to 112 but im trying to maintain rn

every time someone calls me skinny its very triggering and makes me want to keep going so Lets Not Comment On Anyones Body Unasked Challenge

esp when hayley does it? i did finally talk to her abt it but i was like girl pls stop telling me im tiny pls stop telling me i need to eat more im very very aware and she said sorry and stopped so