oh and one very important lesson I think everyone should have learned from yesterday:
If you are gonna be a jack ass in rp, don't be a jack ass to nai.
She's been to therapy, she's been through several toxic and abusive relationships with RP people, she's medicated, she's petty, she's sick of your shit and she will take no prisoners
If you are gonna be a jack ass in rp, don't be a jack ass to nai.
She's been to therapy, she's been through several toxic and abusive relationships with RP people, she's medicated, she's petty, she's sick of your shit and she will take no prisoners
Emphasis on petty and will take no prisoners
I am not the majority of rpers who avoid conflict to the point of letting someone murder my dog and then going "no it's cool. I probably deserved it because I broke this vague rp rule somewhere"
"clearly I annoyed them so they had every right to murder my dog!"
i think froakie and takozu have been at the forefront of this transformation. With a side of RiiTheAmazing
yeah, you've come such a long way! 
I wont say i am happy that the years of like
2012-2015 happened for me in rp
But I will say i learned a lot about myself and pulled myself out of the gutter and learned to be very self aware and learned about all my personal pitfalls
I'm still struggling to be the best version of myself and with all my toxic habits. I'm still struggling in remembering the past and the person I had been at that time.
ANd I wanna say I am still pretty sure I'm the worst like 75% of the time
but like bruh
If you just shit on me, fine. whatever. sucks but i'll get over it.
If u shit on me and several different friends ur life r gon
i'm sorry this happened
werepuppy: honestly, it's fine. I am hurt and upset because i had valued the people involved. But i valued them before i knew the depth of what had been going on
/nods
I feel a bit stupid in hindsight because i took their words at face value and i did ignore a few quiet warning bells about one in particular, so i wish i had been more aware at the start of things taking a turn
but at the same time, like i said, what was going on was so ridiculously high school petty that i didn't think two women over the age of 30 could actually be so ridiculously immature and ugly hearted
Like, i don't speak to people my age and think "Oh yes, they are definitely lying, down playing their actions, and actively talking behind people's backs because they really want to play out some smut with a couple of different kylo rens because they are that thirsty to imagine themselves fucking adam driver"
"Of course they want to shove every rey out of the way so they can continue a campaign to get some holy grail kylo ren muns because they have deluded themselves into thinking that they have the best takes on rey and are the best writers"
the above sentence is not an exaggeration. I'm not joking. They actually believe they write the best reys
One thinks what makes her so good is because she's ~Different from other reys~
again
Not kidding
this is what they have said
I didn't know this because I wasn't on plurk
they both definitely took advantage of that
so if ur one of my reys reading this
they think they are better than u
hint: they aren't
lmao i didn't even know that was what was going on because, again, they are both 30+
and i just made the, reasonable, assumption that they were both mature enough to not play games
and now looking back at a few key times I'm like "oh... is that what that moment was? A strange test of my loyalty because you wanted me to drop my friend because she made u feel weird feefees and you couldn't cope?"
to be clear: Being jealous and envious is not a pitfall. we're all human. To deny yourself those feelings is unhealthy
What is a pitfall is letting those feelings rule your actions and instead of owning up to them to yourself and other people, you decide to silently test people because you live under the assumption that your ~true friends~ will do what you want because you should be the most important person in their life
I don't get highlandering
granted- given the maturity levels involved here, they probably don't understand that that is what is going on. at least one of them doesnt
They would read this and get defensive and insist that wasn't why they defriended me. And they definitely believe whatever bullshit they are spewing
I mean I think the fact I'm Bruce Wayne in your phone means I am AWESOME but lmao I can't imagine being like "I write this character someone else created better than you in this hobby"
because they gotta believe whatever bullshit they are spewing because deep
DEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEP down inside
they know what i just said is right
and the moment they acknowledge it they will crumble apart
because bruh
I'm a great friend
I am
How many of u have i stayed up with or talked with through a mental health Thing
How many of you have I helped navigate mental health bullshit
How many of you have I gotten gifts or created things for or have randomly popped in to ur inbox with
"THOUGHT YOU'D LIKE THIS"
How many of you have I assured that you are a good person and deserve good things
And this isn't to say anyone of you owes me anything, i do these things cause that's just the type of person I am
And so if u fuck shit up w me like
bruh?
First off: How?
second off: No really HOW?
Third off: too bad for u. u lost me
i'm not always a good friend and I'd argue i've been a pretty shitty one in the past. But these past couple of years i have worked my ass off to make sure i don't make the same mistakes
