救命啊我一直在逃避讀論文一事現在因果報應

某種程度上知道了特定在乎的人不如自己一般在乎
但自己也常常不在乎其他人大概沒差很多（又差不多）

戀愛真是件詭異的事

呃呃呃呃呃呃呃

救命我起床到現在應該已經灌了1500ㄉ咖啡了（拿鐵啦）
心悸
雖然我覺得半小時後我一樣睡死

看來妳的作息不太正常啊……

r890376: 沒我只是一天24小時都能睡

我真的不知道有什麼時間點是我沒睡過（或沒醒過）的

喝太多了 睡不著
浪費白日日光太可惜了
翹掉課有點不優
但果然還是喘息一下感覺很好，這週已經足夠忙了。

fumikyo: 可以趁妳還有時間的時候我們去喝下午茶，還是妳喜歡吸貓，我也可以帶妳去玩貓

太嗨跑去攀岩
果然還是精神不行
平衡協調變很差 都在出蠻力

it's hard saying your true feeling once you know people around know you. kinda not wanting them to worry, kinda not wanting yourself to present as what you don't want. cheerful and lazy and bold has been the image i want to have. and maybe some sweet and thoughtful. sadly it's not what everything is like and now it became hard to say it all out

well it's not became, it has always been but i just, it just didn't come to me to say it out to people i know. and as for now i wish i know no one on the media and i just speak to some strangers i have never known and will never know. i'm good, i have always been good, and i will be good. hanging rope just comes to me for times these days but i will be good.

the words above might be frightening if someone ever cares. i'm frightened by myself too, especially when i googled pictures of the rope. seldom do i feel the taste of fright. it was really rare and horrifying, and somehow good because of the rarity.

well so far i'm done with the emotions. speaking english here is relaxing since the sense of saying but people not aware of what you say is good. well maybe it's not true, i just supposed that no one had the patience to read all these shits above.

another cycle of hating myself