at least excited past an initial moment of !

anyway posting this here because sorry to be slow in replying to threads

this is one of the reasons

the other is just schoolwork but because of this reason, it's difficult getting through that too

only just now realized I put my pj shirt on backwards... and inside out last night

you first, always. the threads will be there

be excited about me!
just kidding. I know how you feel and I really hope you know that I am always here for you. Whenever you just want to talk or rant or whine. I got you, love.

loves on everyone

I KNOW I WANT TO BE and I guess like deep down somewhere I am? but I can't reach it

it's frustratiiiiing

I'm going to go to convenient care after class today too because I've also had no sense of taste for.......... a long time and that is probably not helping

I bought the delicious February only brownie batter donuts from dunkin donuts and I was like AT LAST and ate one and I'm like

oh

I blamed the donuts until I remembered last night that I still don't have a sense of taste

like I've just gotten used to not having it that I keep thinking that it's the food

but it's not, it's me

likewise I've gotten so used to being so stuffed up and not able to breathe completely well that I think that everyone breathes like this

Like I said. I know how you feel.
So I understand and it's ok. Baby steps. I am not going anywhere.

(I think it's related to the taste thing so I'm going for all of it)

thank you

but that taste thing has to suck omg

yeah like literally

what was I eating last night

something idk

Let me know if there is anything I can do

and I just casually mentioned like "I forget that nothing tastes right"

Just any dumb small thing.

and my roommate's like uhhhhh go to a doctor???

and I'm like... o yeah I could do that I guess lmaojfskdl

you are kind!!!

Yeah I think that'd be a good idea too

No just greedy. I want my Izzy back

it makes me mad to get depressed

it's like I can still remember how I feel when things are fine enough and I'm like what is different and why is this so hard???

ughhhhhhhhh

well tomorrow I start on my full dose of my medication since I've had to build up to it over a period of like... a month

so hopefully... when that starts and I'm on it for a bit it will do something...

I know how you feel. I mean I guess I am always ... low level depressed. But I know how it feels when it makes it so hard to do anything

♡♡♡

/clings on you

I am sure it will help.

/clings right back

I hope so... she wants to raise my lithium medication but she's waiting for me to be on the other one at full dose for a bit

and like honestly I think the lithium helps more?? but

we'll see I guess;;;;

I get that.

I had to ask her for a letter with my diagnoses for accommodations at school and she was like saying them out loud as she typed them

Baby steps. One has to be patient with oneself I guess

and she was like

"holding off on bipolar until you agree with me"

so I'm LIKE

AM I???? I DON'T KNOW I DON'T WANT TO LIKE MISDIAGNOSE MYSELF SDKLFJ

but also if that's the case and I'm not like... getting enough treatment towards that, it would make sense why I can't maintain anything

idk

I just don't think I have enough episodes of hypomania or if what I'm thinking they are even are that

trying to research more though @_@

I am glad she wants you to agree first

yeah she's really awesome and I'm sad that I will lose her when I move in 3-4 months sfkldj

That sucks but at least you got her til then!

/loves and cuddles on the izzy

we are here, and we're glad you're talking with people who can help!