not going to go into too much detail unless anybody's nosy because i tl;dr like a motherfucker but basically, uh...

formerly "dormant" health condition started flaring up in like november of last year. been feeling like shit because that and allergies have been absolutely kicking my ass.

as with most "spoonies," annoying relatives come in droves to tell you about the various GENIUS options that any dumbass with google could figure out.

yoga. essential oils. just exercise. special diets like gluten-free whatevers. "have you tried??? doing this basic fucking thing???"

i'm no newbie to this bullshit but it still drives me nuts.

other happenings in the life of ryu:

moved in with my grandparents to get some more space and freedom. dad's place reeks too much like tobacco, all my hate bth.

*tbh

been seeing doctors in general. took forever to see a specialist about the recent thing!!!

had to babysit my cute little sister a lot while mom works more and continues to be difficult because she has no respect for what she sees as a "free babysitter." is2g, all my complaints go in one ear, out the other and i have to make "NO MORE BABYSIT" threats to get it through her skull.

(and even then, it's not guaranteed to work.)

aki has neighbor dog friends and is excited about it, oh my dog!!!! she'll "race" them from her side of the fence. and if she hears them barking, she'll want to GO OUTSIDE LIKE HER LIFE DEPENDS ON IT, JFC, LET ME OUT, DAD!!!!!!!

other stuff too, but eh, gotta keep myself from tl;dring.

i've mainly been losing my mind from relatives being dumb and annoying as fuck. just trying to get back on my feet health-wise after being knocked on my ass and some of them are so damn concerned with policing my life or something.

some of the more annoying ones will speak up anytime my posture's not perfect or what the fuck ever, when they don't do anything to fix problems in their own damn lives.

there's also a lot of "well it'S not THAT bad!!!" when they don't know how it makes me feel physically, emotionally, etc.

there's some childhood trauma behind it and i shouldn't have to spill my guts out for them to fuck off with the dr. google shit, you know? especially when some of them will probably not care anyway. 9_9

some of their advice is about as shitty as "have asthma? just breathe!" or "feel depressed? just smile more!"

uh... that's about it, i guess. trying to keep my tl;dr in check.

oh wait, i've also been trying to go to the local rec center more to work out. my grandparents have a family membership. and my sister's taking a little ballet class.

i wore my ass out yesterday and some of my dipshit relatives are already being dicks about it, lmao.

your legs are sore? just walk more!!! get halthyz!!!!! i also twisted my ankle so get off my damn back, i need to rest. my mom is one of those people and it's pretty damn annoying.

she'll literally complain about how i should get a "real" job but I'M THE ONE WHO WATCHES MY SISTER FOR FUCKING FREE.

just one of those "you can't do anything right because i'll look for any little thing to complain about" types. and it's hard to go NC (no contact) when i care about my sister.

anyway, my trashy-ass reality show is on in a minute (90 day fiance) but i kept feeling bad about ghosting on rp things, uuuughhh.

oh, another thing i forgot:

sorry for being dead on discord! my laptop was being a laggy shit so i was limited in what i could have open. but i put a new hard drive in and it's working a lot better. maybe the hd was glitching up, idk, but whatever.

So that's what happened!

my laptop wife is better now and i can leave a bunch of things open without it lagging and/or crashing now! not that i will, i was testing it, hahah.

/pretends to not notice vlc, thunderbird, and a few other non-browser programs open.

plushielordlexi: sorry, sexi lexi. orz i've been feeling totally unmotivated to talk to people too.

It's all cool! I get that way too, so I understand.

hahah, my grandma just came to my room and told me that aki's been out for over an hour, just relaxing in the backyard and occasionally going crazy over her neighbor dog friends when they come out. she likes the neighbor dog next to us, but she does the fence tag/racing/idk with the dogs in the yard behind us.

her and my sister are so cute. uwu

...holy fucking shit, my last plurk was almost a year ago.

i guess i owe people a picture of my and aki's room then. i just organized it a little more today too...

oh and it's also nearly summer so aki's blowing out her winter coat, fml. we'll keep finding her fur around the house on the floor. i'll brush her fluffy butt outside but there's just more and more, jfc.