[mental health and relationship bs] I don't want to be awake, but don't want to be asleep either
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Un(t)sundered
5 years ago
/burrow into
don't want to be asleep, cause fucking nightmares
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don't want to be awake cause I am 100% sure my husband is mad at me
I was trapped in nightmares, and couldn't wake up. and when he came into the bedroom to set his alarm for the morning, it was enough stimulation that I was actually able to escape the nightmare enough to move and get out of bed
and I told him I was sorry, I didn't want to get up as he was going to bed, I just. I needed to be out of the bedroom and away from the fucking nightmares
and he hugged me and I went upstairs
and I waited for him to come say goodnight, and
that was over an hour ago
Un(t)sundered
5 years ago
oh geez
and it probably seems like a little thing, but he always checks on me when I first get up. and the fact that he just. went to bed without even coming up to say goodnight is just
Un(t)sundered
5 years ago
hopefully he just forgot? or will cool down soon enough, if he didn't
killing me
I wish I could believe that. I wish so much
Un(t)sundered
5 years ago
Un(t)sundered
5 years ago
if he weren't likely asleep I'd suggest going to talk to him
yeah, I. should probably try and talk to him in the morning
Un(t)sundered
5 years ago
yeah, that's a good idea
Un(t)sundered
5 years ago
in the meantime... do you have anything you could distract yourself with?
Un(t)sundered
5 years ago
games/videos/books...?
ѕo Hαıʟ Sιтнιѕ
5 years ago @Edit 5 years ago
idk. I've tried a few things. reading, watching videos. my mind just keeps circling back
........ no, plurk, that was not a link
cricketussy
5 years ago
/hugs
cricketussy
5 years ago
He might have just been really tired and passed out quick
cricketussy
5 years ago
I hope that's the case, anyway. But I get how hard it is to try to believe something like that when your brain is fixated on worrying.
yeah hopefully it was more a thing where he was too tired to think properly about it and passed out instead of being mad or anything, still that sucks and I am sorry love
I know brains can be hard to convince otherwise until you get the chance to talk to him, if you can find something to distract yourself with that'd be good, let your brain wander away for a bit
thank you guys
I think I'm just going to. try and disappear down the youtube rabbit hole.
not a bad place to go, I do that a lot
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