I LITERALLY CANT SLEEP I'M SO EXCITED TO MARRY MY FIANCE

I IMPULSE BOUGHT.... A WEDDING MAGAZINE.... AND I EXPECTED HIM AND VANESSA TO BE DISAPPOINTED IN ME FOR SPENDING MONEY

BUT BOTH VANESSA AND SNAPPER WERE LIKE !!!! wedding!

I was literally prepared to have to defend myself for being excited to marry snapper.... but they were so happy ..... ;~;

I had a defending argument prepared!

sometimes it just. hits me how toxic living with my family was. and how I was so ashamed of things like this

BUT THIS PLURK ISNT ABPUT THAT!

I WENT THROUGH THE MAGAZINE AND PUT LITTLE STICKY NOTES ON THE THINGS I LIKED AND VANESSA LOOKED THROUGH THEM WITH ME

I STARTED MAKING LISTS! OF PLACES I'D LIKE TO GET MARRIED

AND SOMEONE, EITHER VANESSA OR SNAPPER, MENTIONED REDWOOD FORESTS AND WOW! WOWZA

I also looked at lots of closer places too and there are SO MANY NICE PLACES AND EVERYTHING COSTS MONEY

snapper made me promise to go over all my notes with him tomorrow, he's excited too

and I keep being surprised at how happy he is to talk about this??? I mean, it makes sense, he should be excited, but i keep bracing for him to not be interested or be uncomfortable

IDK why

and then! we were talking about it before he went to sleep

AND HE, UNPROMPTED, TOLD ME HE WANTS TO WRITE HIS OWN VOWS

my heart nearly beat out of my chest gdi

I've still got butterflies. thinking about him taking the time to write that for me.... I just.... I want to cry I'm so happy

clutches heart

GOD

what did I ever do to deserve this?

he knows me! he knows all my flaws and my shortcomings and my bad brain and he just! keeps! loving me!

wtf

augh I'm sorry I don't normally gush like this bc I'm afraid of it being annoying/jinxing my relationship

I'm just

Hhhh!!!!!!

he's so wonderful. He's resilient and thoughtful and calm and intelligent and funny and I'm. Very lucky.

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

OH MY GODJLDKDDLJ

CONTRAGGRITSSS!

HI

CONTRAGRITS?

CONTAGRIRATS!

HAPPY FERN

GROW STRONG

YEAH!!!??!

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA CUTE HAPPY MARRY FIRM

I'M HAPY FRO YOU

WEVE BEEN INFORMALLY ENGAGED FOR 3 YEARS BUT RIGHT NOW I MUST. SCREAM

BUT WEDG

!

I'M HAPG

THANK YOU IM HAPPY FOR ME TOO!!!!

GOOD FERNTG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

GOOD PEN!!!!

EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE

I'm like, on the brink of a manic episode bc apparently my brain doesn't know how to handle this much happiness so I'm going to drink some tea and take a sleep aid but!!!!! WOW

eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

it was Snapper who suggested it but!!! yeah!!!

of course we're excited, we want you to be happy and he definitely wants to marry you so

SCREAMS he woke me up pulling him into his arms, I am gay and weak

thank you nessa

lbr if he wasn't excited about wedding planning I would be seriously questioning his resolve

(though that's not to say he'll always be excited, do remember that, but if he's not at least interested and there's no obvious distractions then I would be "hmmm")

same

You are so cute. : D

HURGLES!!!

I'm a SAP

Well, you're a plant, that's to be expected. : D

(Do... do ferns have sap or is that only trees? I'm pretty sure they do...)

pfpfbfbfpfpffft

Ferns have sap yes and it doesn't taste good

but its rare to find it in a plant because while trees ooze, ferns dry up quickly