shoves these two unrelated memes together because i can

rp history is just really easy. this is a mostly comprehensive list of my ljrp/dwrp experience, i can't remember dates. i do know i started rping on lj innn 2008, i played belgium from hetalia in aphdr

but i've been rping since i was... probably... 8...? it started on neoboards, i did a lot of oc rp; i continued doing oc rp for a while actually lmao... proboards, invisionfree, avidgames, etc. avidgames was a bunch of wolf rp (don't ask), proboards was largely pokemon i'm pretty sure, invisionfree was...

i stalked a one piece board a friend of mine played at, i feel like i was part of something kingdom hearts related?

anyway despite the fact all i play now is fandom stuff, my biggest wheelhouse always was oc stuff. still love my mute trainer who communicated with her chimecho via whistling

i don't... think i did any fandom rp until... i hit lj, actually...? i wrote a lot of fanfiction (which i've been doing since uhhh somewhere in the 11-13 age range) so the concept of writing characters that weren't mine wasn't a foreign one.

but i just never did it because i had never like, really experienced that kind of thing... except as a sidebar to some oc rp i had on aim with a friend (self-insert indulgent bs with beyblade) (Look.)

aim rp was a small thing for a while there, i know i took a break from journal rp to do tumblr... that was utapri, laughs. i played kaoru kurusu, because i love a boy who the anime refuses to acknowledge the existence of because his entire conflict doesn't make sense if they don't give syo a heart condition, utapri anime please

i also had a rule 63 syo, i played with peace's r63 natsuki... i snagged heartacher for her tumblr actually, it was fucking brilliant. kaoru's was also really good i just can't remember it off the top of my head, it had something to do with ekgs because he was studying to be a heart doctor for his brother's sake

...now i use heartacher for my personal tumblr because i got tired of capturesexual and heartacher is very bellacore

anyway vague gestures, rp history link has pretty much every... game i've played at i think, save some i was in for like a hot second (zodion) (please don't ask me about zodion)... i modded at empatheias for two years when i played there and i just

i had a good time, i wouldn't mind modding again sometime? i learned a lot from it and i'd like to improve on my mod skillz, but probably not for another... year or two.... get myself in a better place...

i guess that's all the notes i have about rp history though, ONTO OPINIONS

lucylovespluto: enstars!! like: honestly the stories, i'm very invested in these boys, laughs... (actually the card art tends to be really pretty too and i'm shallow) i love reading new bits about them and i get excited whenever i see someone even summarizing new events and gachas and etc on my tl, i'm working on getting better at translating so i can

read more stories on my own and stuff like that too, for the ones that haven't been translated yet... it's hard but it'll be worth it... i just really love it, i guess. there's so much to explore!!

dislike: mmmMMMMMmmmm wow i have such a time figuring out stuff i dislike when i'm not like, actively pissed about something... so then my answer always defaults to like, "fandom" but i don't even mind enstars fandom that much outside of a vague notion that there are some babes of the tit who need to take a nap...

oh--

it makes a lot of sense, but characters/units do get shafted or at least substantially less spotlight because there's so many of them

and while i think it does lend a lot of like, great chemistry to the cast and stories (and i love seeing everyone interact!! gosh) it's just also... gestures. i feel like this happens with a lot of canons as they introduce more cast

tbh this was a worry of mine when they introduced genesis to yumeirocast, but i don't think it's been too bad there-- otoh no one translates stuff for it so i'd have to go dig for that myself

tl;dr i love story, it's not necessarily a dislike but i'm worried about a bloated cast and characters just getting shoved into a box and forgotten ig

nowww persona.....

i love a lot of things about persona tbh, but i think what always draws me back is the... how do i word this. there's a lot of thought and exploration about themes and i eat that stuff up? i was an english major when i was uni proper, i would go back into english if i went back to uni. analyzing themes (textual and subtextual), characters, etc is my jam

so i really love the exploration of different themes-- ironically i mean my favorite game was persona 4 for a while which... i don't think examines themes so much but it was a fun game & i'm a sucker for murder mystery bs. despite this obv i play from the "kids react to mortality and existential despair" persona

(ok technically it's persona 4 arena but elizabeth is a persona 3 character and-- anyway)

(god existential despair still works for p4arena though. p4 was kind of very "accept yourself and be who you want to be, people will accept you if they truly love you too" though which i think... was a message i needed and still need as i grow...)

but anyway yeah, i love its themes overall and the examination of them, exploration, things like that...

dislike:

where do i... begin.... i adore persona? i love this series a lot. i promise you i adore it, but unfortunately it's one of the series i've been into for years just like tales of and so like tales of, it has. i have small grievances with it and with atlus and. vague gestures

i always hated p3's thing of "to max a social link with this girl you must date them" and i vastly prefer the following persona games' approach as "you can friendship them now!!", it's been a while since i played p3p but i'm p sure they didn't give. minato that option despite updating it and having minako have the ability to do that...??

actually romance routes in general in persona are so.

i mean i like them but they could be better

i liked p4's a lot at least. can't remember if i had an issue with any of them... off the top of my head... but it's been since high school i think since i played p4

p5 is easy to poke holes at because it's the one i've experienced most recently (except for persona q, but pq has. HMMM. i love pq but some people have rightfully pointed out it does flanderize some characters (persona 4 arena does this too), and i feel like while i love its story and its characters... the story isn't very strong...? but i love it.)

anyway p5 has BULL and SHIT, i'm still grumpy about atlus post first palace.

they did really well with the commentary on sexualization and with ann's arc and everything, and i love her social link, but they also consistently shove her into sexualizing bs like HAHAHA, YOUR MESSAGE IS GETTING A LITTLE LOST THERE......

also: akechi's death wasn't bullshit but the fact literally no one talked about him or it or anything like that afterwards wasn't? it reminded me a lot of fractured milla's thing. served the plot, died, i guess one character references it maybe twice, but otherwise: haha who? did we really have another character??

i don't know what my dislike is. "atlus should take some writing classes and be more consistent and stop dropping the ball on important shit" maybe

Me at hapiele: please don't make eden an actual permanent unit

I like their dynamics and they can pop up in big events BUT WE'RE GOOD RIGHT NOW...

Also. Atlus please...

on one hand, mood. on the other, i'm interested in learning more about eden, and if they became part of the cast permanently we'd have more of a chance to get more for them? but that also goes back to the potential of a cast that really is too bloated.....

potential though.

and. you'd think i'd be used to atlus but nah. i feel like something similar got pulled with ryoji, but also: you sort of speed along to march 5th after you defeat him when he's nyx avatar so there's not... a lot of leeway there...

ohbut

i do have. lmfao. i do have a problem with p4's true end and that's getting to it. would i have thought about that gas station attendant i met literally for two seconds at the beginning of the game? probably not

true end fight is really great and i still love izanami as a whole, even if she is technically as bare bones as her boss form (god she's so cool tho), but.

i can't speak for persona 4 golden unfortunately because i haven't played it. i like marie as a character from what i've seen but i don't know how necessary she was either?? i should go watch an lp or something for p4g

Yeah...

I'M SORRY I HAVE A LOT OF PERSONA FEELINGS this is what i get for being here for... i always want to say "not that long" but tbh i'm pretty sure i played p4 near the end of high school...? i know i knew jac then... and i started rping from persona in 2012, that's when i made my ryoji and liz journals...

i guess 2012 is end of high school, i was graduated then

(2011 class representt)

so uhh seven years or something now i guess... i can't claim "not that long" anymore even though straight up compared to my other two big fandoms (pokemon and tales of) it's pretty young

to put into perspective how long i've loved pokemon, i had a pokemon-themed nap mat in kindergarten

so that's like, 5ish...

soooo something like 20 years now, i guess. it's been very consistent. i'd larp with my cousin and peace about pokemon in our backyard too. we had a little notebook of "recipes" for pokefood

i still have a recipe for pidgey food tucked away somewhere.

tales of was... my first experience was symphonia, like a lot of people, so i think that was somewhere around 2004 or 2005...? so that's 15ish years i guess...

anyway tl;dr persona is one of my old fandoms so it gets to suffer in "wow do i have complaints about you and the company you come from" hell, but it still feels new to me just because compared to my other ones it's so younggg

Class of 2012, I feel this.

Might I say that while I loved p3p, the fandom was also yes p4 and ze plot twist in the form of a gas station attendant.

hahahahahahahaha persona fandom in general is just so

i'm so thankful for rec's persona cast for not being a bunch of crazies considering how the fandom at large can be tbh. we have a good group. i fucking love my cast

we're all chill and sweet and we get along and it's just nice tbh

you feel a bond of mixed feelings toward persona fandom with Bella... Your social link has improved!