i will absolutely be fair to myself, even despite having a long, physically and emotionally exhausting day and then getting some mildly disappointing news that i COULD obsess and beat myself up over

BUT I WONT

being sad about a girl and having negative thoughts about myself because of it is for some other day

not today

NOT TODAY!!

thanks everybody

i am just very tired and kind of sick and having a rough week and day and yeah

trying to remember this is not something to react to the way my brain is really wanting to

it's okay to be a little sad if you wanna be sad

brains are not good at anything

i just need to get through tomorrow and then i will have a couple days off from work to recover and feel like a person again

and be a REASONABLE amount of sad and maybe even be kind to myself