[DnD] (cw fictional suicide) Having serious talks with people is always hard for me. Especially when I have to confess a squick. For example in my current DnD game I found out my pally is actually undead and~
The way to have it fixed it to commit suicide
so someone can resurrect me
And it's not something I broadcast often, but suicide really bothers me.
I mean it's fictional and it's literally only going to happen for a moment then be over, so I feel like I'm being a baby
And PCs die all the time. Mine have died a lot.
But this is the first time it's made me uncomfortable
It feels like that time in CoC where characters had to commit suicide to leave an alternate reality. Where I explicitly knew it was temporary, but it shook me
and I had Lancer die in battle instead. THERE IS NEXT TO NO FUNCTIONAL DIFFERENCE but it made me feel better
I just don't like the 'suicide is the only option' plot device
And so I have to ask my DM not to force me to kill myself to keep playing...
That sounds really sketchy tbh, I'd be uncomfortable with that kind of twist too
(Don't have fond memories of that C&C plot either)
I think he means well. Like I said I haven't explicitly explained this is a squick of mine to him yet.
But it feels like it's either suicide or suffering: the literal decision as a plot device
if you inform them that this makes you super uncomfortable
and if he's a good dm he will find another way to help your character
that isnt literal suffering
Yeah, that's what I'm going to do tonight. It'll be hard for me. But its that or be on camera commiting fictional suicide