Not to mention my family who is either selectively choosing which posts they see of dumb if they don't know I'm asexual and bi are certainly NOT going to donate.

I shared the post like they INSISTED, but I didn't "add anything personal" or "promote the AMAs or lessons I'm offering" for certain donation brackets. BECAUSE NO ONE ON FB WILL BE DONATING

I'm concentrating on Tumblr, because I know lots MORE people there, including aces from other countries, and if I'm going to bring in any donations, it'll be from there.

Also our leader apparently thinks that Wednesday is the best day to beg for donations (Wealth Wednesday and that makes me grind my teeth), while I think it would be Friday, as payday.

I just... I don't WANT to leave the group. Outreach has given me amazing opportunities to interview (There's a featurette on me in GLAMOUR's July issue and a whole article on their website) and help shows like Shadowhunters do right by their asexual characters. I don't want to lose that

But I do not take well to be FORCED to do things I find useless. I feel useless even without external forces and it is FUCKING HARD for me to ask for money for myself when I need FOOD, let alone beg for an organization.

They talk about "comfort levels" and they INSIST I go past mine, because they didn't LISTEN when I explained the FB echo chamber and that I was concentrating on tumblr (and planning to post tomorrow because again, payday)

offers hugs. just so many hugs.

balsamandash: Thanks

I just feel like crap asking people to donate to something I can't donate to (because again, POOR) and this isn't my JOB. I am not being paid to do all the things I already do for the group. The days I volunteer to sit at booths or promote us in interviews or take the notes at meetup or co-host a monthly meetup where I spend money I don't HAVE

to make other people feel at ease and justify our taking up space in a restaurant