☆Tobi
2017-03-02T04:38:59.000Z
Normally I don't plurk this sort of crap but fuck I am exhausted.
☆Tobi
2017-03-02T04:40:27.000Z
Also, "trying hard" at a relationship with my mom is basically me being the only person in my family who tells her to her face what the emotional effect of her actions are on everyone else.
☆Tobi
2017-03-02T04:40:50.000Z
And also calling her out on her bullshit.
☆Tobi
2017-03-02T04:41:16.000Z
And spending uncomfortable amounts of time with her.
☆Tobi
2017-03-02T04:41:43.000Z
(Fun fact: we have never been close.)
☆Tobi
2017-03-02T04:43:18.000Z
She came over tonight and I wanted to tell her that I got invited to intern at a wildlife park (!!) but instead she immediately started talking about how I need to get horse/farm insurance and
☆Tobi
2017-03-02T04:44:24.000Z
She doesn't trust one of my best friends and she never wants this friends horse at our farm (and this horse is the future wife of my horse boyfriend)
☆Tobi
2017-03-02T04:45:12.000Z
And then in effect telling me that it's my fault if we lose our family farm because I didn't get horse insurance months ago
☆Tobi
2017-03-02T04:45:54.000Z
When I've been trying to do this insurance stuff for months but she keeps changing her mind on what her needs are?
☆Tobi
2017-03-02T04:46:56.000Z
Not that details are important, just that she always complains about stuff not getting done and the reason it doesn't get done is because of HER
☆Tobi
2017-03-02T04:47:26.000Z
And she obviously doesn't realize that, so she resorts to blaming whoever she is talking to at the time.
☆Tobi
2017-03-02T04:47:55.000Z
And since I am trying to form a relationship with her, that person is frequently me.
☆Tobi
2017-03-02T04:48:22.000Z
She takes it out on the person who is most actively trying to help her.
☆Tobi
2017-03-02T04:49:14.000Z
And then when I decided I needed to leave the room for a bit, I came back and she had left.
☆Tobi
2017-03-02T04:50:19.000Z
And I called her with the intention of inviting her back over for tea and I could tell her about my success (!!) and ask her about her day
☆Tobi
2017-03-02T04:50:52.000Z
And she instructed me to have some tea and go to bed early
☆Tobi
2017-03-02T04:52:03.000Z
She said "I'm sorry I made you upset" but that way of "you're upset and it has nothing to do with me" which is literally the opposite of what happened
☆Tobi
2017-03-02T04:52:47.000Z
I was in such a great mood before she came over that when my cat literally chewed nearly 2 inches of my hair off, I laughed
☆Tobi
2017-03-02T04:53:09.000Z
Like, I legit still think it's funny 😂😂
☆Tobi
2017-03-02T04:54:32.000Z
But otherwise I'm drained after 35minutes of being blamed like I'm a lazy worthless human who is also stupid (when I know I'm none of those things)
☆Tobi
2017-03-02T04:55:15.000Z
And my attempt to fix things before getting a poor night's sleep was a complete miss
Holy moly, that sounds exhausting... D:
Frika
2017-03-02T13:30:41.000Z
jfc, that is insane... I'm so sorry sweetie.
☆Tobi
2017-03-03T04:59:41.000Z
Orz I give up for the rest of the week with her. Mostly because she's got a cold or something and I don't want that, lol