virgil is one of those people who are like "my job is to save people not kill them???" but consecutively he's terrified because he knows his job is also thinking as a killer and he's just
super worried that in trying to help marigold he'll just keep following that pattern and he's NOT okay with that
like he already realizes he somewhat sympathizes with killers he relates to and he's like
okay but on the one hand katsuki will kill me if i don't play to win??? and i don't want to lose???
but on the other hand weighing just a bit higher is this fear that he's just going to snap one day because
reasons
SO that's part of the reason like he's really behind this not trying to attack things but also he's virgil and he really does just want to protect people b-but
if he allowed himself to be selfish it would totally be the former but he won't and so it's just an idea that haunts him when he looked around after the game especially
HE GETS U