I... feel like I'm total shit at just about everything? I'm 90% certain I'm superfluous to most people's play and characters? I'm crying as I write this?

please don't cry!!!!

omg no tho

I feel out of step with everyone and everything RP wise and I'm frustrated as FUCK and I'm not...

you are not superfluous to me. i was just waiting for you to get back from vacation before i bugged you for things

chromologue: HUG

I ENJOY YOUR PRESENCE OK

chromologue: double hug

seriously it's not like... this is not RL stuff, my RL is pretty damn good, even with my mom being annoying

YOU ARE AWESOME LET ME HUG YOU

oh gosh darn it I really didn't post this for people to make me feel better I really didn't

I was about to apologize!

just cause I know I've been glacial on some things and I just keep looking at things thinking my everything is trash

Kabriel: HUGS BACK

NO APOLOGIES

/forcefully loves on you

chromologue: you can bug me whenever you like

honey ;; im sorry you dont feel good about rp but we love and appreciate you a ton

but legit i know the feel you are feeling

i just got here and that was bc i think you are awesome

and its okay to ask for support or reassurance

and tbh i was saying i felt the same way last night so i totally understand

chromologue: I caught that but I was half asleep and when I try to reassure people that they're lovely when I'm half asleep it comes out WEIRD sometimes and that is not something to leave to confusing text

passiones: thanks ^_^;

there was just a confluence of things and I swear to GOD this was not like... whining about anyone or anything. I put this squarely on me. I'm just frustrated and it's giving me terrible block

and then it's self-perpetuating

I am in the throes of this feeling myself. dont worry you are not alone.

waswritinwater: you are lovely and it's so nice to have met you!

ahaha no i get you

but look, we can totally do something and i dont mind slowness

man I know my own touch and go approach has not been helpful, but ftr I think that Alan has so much potential to be GREAT for Kylo

or anything

you are not shit!!!!

with_discipline: you are lovely! and I love their relationship

and I'm finally at home with things I need to check stuff for some tags back!

note to self: do not leave for vacation without a way to get to your comics

chromologue: I am happy to start things! ...I've been hiding in Clark land since that's pretty much the only muse running properly at the moment.

okay so what has clark been up to lately? i know he's dating botmon, but aside from that!

DON'T CRY

waswritinwater: ...also ngl your kind words kinda helped bucketloads the last few days

i'm sorry i haven't been in a bruce mindset lately, you are absolutely not superfluous to me

sindicate: oh goodness nooooo I didn't think that I know you've been on a different groove I am lamenting my own flail I promise please do not streeeessss

nooo

chromologue: not much! he needs to do more

oh then i am glad to have said them

hmm what if angela calls him up and is like LOOK CLARK. I NEED A PIE FIX AND MY OVEN IS BROKEN. HALP. ISNT THIS WHAT SUPERMAN DOES?

or something less cracky and more serious lol

chromologue: she can certainly do that thing!

serious or not

also does she know he's superman?

she does not

she just thinks he's a nice nerdy reporter with a penchant for baking

who lets bruce handle his money

like any smart person does

a billionaire knows money

but other than that she doesnt know much about him

just that he isnt the crazy clark who keeps doing jackass stunts with dick

nope, definitely not him

pls stay that way, clark

DANII!!! you're incredible wth i'm so excited to be playing with you lately our threads bring me Incredible Joy

chiefbeef: glomps firmly / same!

seriously everyone YOU ARE ALL LOVELY I just let my ridiculous self hatred spiral eat me alive and it's been making me seriously tagblocked and I wanted to apolgoize

NO EATING OF YOU

YOU ARE NOT NUTRITIOUS

THE SELF HATE SPIRAL DISAGREES. AND IT CAME EQUIPPED WITH ADOBO.

I BET IT'S NOT EVEN GOYA ADOBO

IT'S PROBABLY THAT CHEAPER LESS TASTY ADOBO

Adobo con azafran!!

ADOBO SIN PIMENTA

okay, my self-hate spiral knows better

but I believe the moral of the story is

you are all lovely

and I need to... let people know when I'm just mildly frustrated and asking about ideas as opposed to GIANT OVERBLOWN FREAKOUT

which is good

sometimes just saying "hey i cant do this because i have a block" is good

and anybody who judges you for that, send them to me

You are not superfluous!

You are one of my reasons for getting up in the morning

If you are blocked/slow on RP, I would love to just babble at you.