When you're trying to tamp down on one of your more vigourous/noticeable stims in public and your brain is just "!!!!!!!"

When you switch to a more discreet stim and someone still tells you to "stop fidgeting", and your whole being just "!!!!!!!!!!!!"

As somebody that leans more to the hyposensitive end of the spectrum, stimming is kind of a constant for me. It fills the holes in my consciousness.

I really cannot just stop. Believe me. I'm not just saying that to be facetious or exaggerative or obnoxious in any way. It is physically uncomfortable for me to stop.

Halfthe time, I don't even notice I'm doing it. So when you bring it to my attention and then tell me to stop, it's having me zero in on the comfort it brings me and then forcing me to stop.

WHICH CAUSES ACTUAL FUCKING DISCOMFORT.

^^^^^^^^ this so damn much. But it's my resting Aspie face.

adrianewright: oh that too. Also, my volume perception/intonation is an issue. People always tell me to speak up and speak slower when I think I sound just fine.

Holy shit, yes, I get the "mumblers don't succeed" and "don't talk so loud at night," and "why do you sound so angry and hateful?"

adrianewright: dude, my voice is literally so flat. People always think I'm upset or annoyed or sarcastic when really, that's just my voice.