like his whole problem is he anticipates way too much. He reacts before people act

based on what he assumes is going to happen

that's his whole problem

right there

and he so doesn't get why gawaine dragged him to camelot and is miserable there

it's like sea longing

actually, given his herritage, that makes sense

not that he's worked it out yet

lancelot's the only one who has a clue that he's actually something more than just the result of one of morgause's random flings

I need to work out the camelot years so that he actually finds out about that on the tail end of going back home

i could see that being a good break and insert skip point actually

finding out oh, my real father's a seal lord, going fuck this, and going home

the early years are totally prologue but they're interesting enough to me to establish stuff for these guys

like how very fey my avalon is, etc

and Gawaine's just gotten concerned enough to drop his posturing. Oh wow