It's getting to the point now where I'm losing my hair again, I am losing zeal for the stuff I usually love, and I'm feeling worthless.

I'm getting dangerously close to a breaking point and I am terrified of what will happen if/when I do

On top of that, there is this indescribable _anger_ that I cannot seem to shake.

I'm terrified of myself... and I am hating everythign and anything about myself which makes matters worse.

If I try to talk to anyone that little voice in the back of my mind just tells me that anyone who listens just thinks I'm throwing a pity-me party and to shut up

Theres a lot of hatred for myself right now..