Brdcrumb Lion@
2015-10-28T17:03:06.000Z
sometimes i just look at my schedule and think "oh shit. oh-- OH SHIT. OH wait... nope. SHIT."
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Brdcrumb Lion@
2015-10-28T17:03:43.000Z
i keep stacking things one after another and they're all POINTLESS but i really don't like missing deadlines (yet i miss 100% of my deadlines and just move them every time)
Brdcrumb Lion@
2015-10-28T17:04:11.000Z
and i've now come to the end of the year and i'm like I HAVE 5 THINGS TO DO BEFORE THE END OF THE MONTH WHICH IS 2 DAYS AWAY
Brdcrumb Lion@
2015-10-28T17:04:23.000Z
obviously that's not gonna happen but yeah
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Brdcrumb Lion@
2015-10-28T17:04:51.000Z
first thing: finish this supernatural/harry potter crossover fic that's currently 85k and will probably be 100k when it's done
Brdcrumb Lion@
2015-10-28T17:05:43.000Z
second thing: finish editing the fic i only signed up to illustrate but edited just because i couldn't bear to see all the typos and grammatical grossness
Brdcrumb Lion@
2015-10-28T17:06:39.000Z
third thing: finish the fic that was due like two months ago, because my posting date is in one month and my betas really need to help me with a fuckton of crap and they can't do that if it's not done
Brdcrumb Lion@
2015-10-28T17:07:21.000Z
in the meantime: gotta update that fic about fairies that my sister keeps asking for more of, she sits there at dinner re-reading the same three chapters over and over because apparently it makes her happy??
Brdcrumb Lion@
2015-10-28T17:07:49.000Z
also in the meantime: finish my 1940s AU that I paused to write my HP/SPN AU
Brdcrumb Lion@
2015-10-28T17:08:02.000Z
then i need to immediately begin a christmas fic
Brdcrumb Lion@
2015-10-28T17:08:27.000Z
THEN get back to the commission fic that my friend commissioned like two fucking years ago oh my god
Brdcrumb Lion@
2015-10-28T17:08:39.000Z
THEN GET BACK TO ALL THE OTHER STUFF I PUT ON HOLD
Brdcrumb Lion@
2015-10-28T17:08:54.000Z
AND THAT'S NOT EVEN MENTIONING THAT I NEED TO SEE DOCTORS BECAUSE MY HEALTH IS ZERO
Brdcrumb Lion@
2015-10-28T17:09:08.000Z
and also this summer i want to do up my room, finally, after so many years
Brdcrumb Lion@
2015-10-28T17:09:38.000Z
my mother had to clean it last week because something died in here and we couldn't find it
Brdcrumb Lion@
2015-10-28T17:09:44.000Z
and it's so clean right now and i love it
Brdcrumb Lion@
2015-10-28T17:09:53.000Z
but anyway
Brdcrumb Lion@
2015-10-28T17:10:17.000Z
all the things listed above, except the commission fic, need to be done before the end of the year
Brdcrumb Lion@
2015-10-28T17:10:37.000Z
what is that, 63 days? 64? NOT ENOUGH DAYS.
Brdcrumb Lion@
2015-10-28T17:11:15.000Z
oh and i failed to mention that during this time, i also need to write a few shorter fics because i haven't updated in a month and my goal for this year was to update every 2 weeks
Brdcrumb Lion@
2015-10-28T17:11:28.000Z
which i've mostly kept to, except when i pause 40k fics to write 100k fics
Brdcrumb Lion@
2015-10-28T17:11:36.000Z
i have a problem
Brdcrumb Lion@
2015-10-28T17:11:40.000Z
i love this problem
Brdcrumb Lion@
2015-10-28T17:11:51.000Z
this is sO MUCH FUN
Brdcrumb Lion@
2015-10-28T17:12:32.000Z
generally people seem to have difficulty making their word counts go up, i have a problem keeping mine down
The Wiccan
2015-10-30T09:19:46.000Z
That is the best kind of problem - too many words that want out of the brain
The Wiccan
2015-10-30T09:20:04.000Z
(Also wow that's a lot of writing!!!)
Brdcrumb Lion@
2015-10-30T16:51:54.000Z
body = 0/10 ; brain = 200,000/10
Brdcrumb Lion@
2015-10-30T16:52:18.000Z
mental health = 5.10
Brdcrumb Lion@
2015-10-30T16:52:57.000Z
i had a random tantrum like a 3-year-old the other day because my dad wanted to borrow my laptop for an evening to do a presentation at a meeting
Brdcrumb Lion@
2015-10-30T16:53:03.000Z
could NOT handle that idea
Brdcrumb Lion@
2015-10-30T16:53:22.000Z
screaming and crying and rolling around on the floor until i felt gross and had to take a shower
Brdcrumb Lion@
2015-10-30T16:53:35.000Z
and by that point i was just laughing because what the fuck??? emotions???????/
Brdcrumb Lion@
2015-10-30T16:54:19.000Z
and i was researching autism today for my current story and yet again i'm reassured that 100% of this is caused by my being hella autistic and being incapable of handing change in routine
Brdcrumb Lion@
2015-10-30T16:54:25.000Z
handling*
Brdcrumb Lion@
2015-10-30T16:55:08.000Z
i cannot quite understand why it took 21 years for me to figure out BY MYSELF that i'm autistic?? why has the health system of 2 different countries failed me so, i wonder
Brdcrumb Lion@
2015-10-30T16:57:44.000Z
but i will note that my mother remained calm and smiled throughout that entire tantrum, which made it easier to deal with. we went to a seminar thing about panic attacks a few weeks ago
Brdcrumb Lion@
2015-10-30T16:58:02.000Z
and she learned that the best way to calm someone down from a panic attack is just to act calm
Brdcrumb Lion@
2015-10-30T16:58:25.000Z
and she apologised for that time i had a panic attack and she spent the whole time yelling at me
Brdcrumb Lion@
2015-10-30T16:58:56.000Z
and she was great this time. i mean i threw a water bottle at her but she picked it up later and washed it and brought it back and i gave her a hug
Brdcrumb Lion@
2015-10-30T16:59:11.000Z
she's so wonderful, i appreciate her ability to learn stuff a lot
Brdcrumb Lion@
2015-10-30T17:00:11.000Z
also i really probably need to see someone about this
Brdcrumb Lion@
2015-10-30T17:00:17.000Z
eh.... hhehhhh
The Wiccan
2015-10-31T01:44:11.000Z
Your mum is pretty cool <3
The Wiccan
2015-10-31T01:44:53.000Z
Whereas mine is trying to force me to exercise and give up sugar, while simultaneously denying she's ever called me fat
The Wiccan
2015-10-31T01:46:21.000Z
Plus she's not going back to work next year so that means approx 6 months with her around home...
The Wiccan
2015-10-31T01:46:59.000Z
If I don't get a job and move out, I am going to come seriously close to violence or at least a screaming match..
Brdcrumb Lion@
2015-10-31T17:07:34.000Z
your mother is X-(
The Wiccan
2015-10-31T19:56:08.000Z
Uh huh
The Wiccan
2015-10-31T19:56:51.000Z
This morning was a repeat lecture featuring a new point (of bullshit) about how I "need more of a social life"
The Wiccan
2015-10-31T19:58:26.000Z
Along with the "why don't you take pride in yourself? Why don't you seem very happy at the moment?" bla bla bla
The Wiccan
2015-10-31T19:59:00.000Z
Well hmm let's see, probably because I can't share my actual hobby with her (writing) because she'll scoff and tell me it's stopping me meeting people
The Wiccan
2015-10-31T19:59:25.000Z
like what if I don't want to meet people atm? Nope, apparently not an option...
The Wiccan
2015-10-31T19:59:35.000Z
ranting mutters
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