i have a hard time people could actually like me. like. i just feel like a cowpie!!!!!

and not even on the looks department because i actually feel my looks are all i have going for me

but the second i open my mouth, i feel like i'm too crass, too unsophisticated, too rambly, and too all over the place.

lately people tell me i have a natural, cute charm but i have a hard time beleiving them

ANYWAY CONFERENCE CUTIE CALLE DME NATURALLY CHARMING AND I'M INTERNALLY DYING

about 10% is pleased, 10% shocked, 50% does not believe her at all, and 30% is filled with dread that i have set a bar too high for even myself

tbh that's more like 10% and 20% idefk what i'm feeling

i feel like i offer a lot of potential in a relationship to somebody but at the same time i feel like i offer absolutely nothing but stress and anxiety

nothing has really happened...idk why i'm already freaking out....bah!!!

just mad because yesterday i was literally daydreaming about the officemate coming over and we'd both snuggle on the chase while watching animated superheroes that is.....what i desire......

more like she'd watch while i kissed her collarbone and nuzzled her neck because i'm a fucking loser who has already watched the animated sueprheroes........

i wanna cook for her and clean her car and that is so dumbbbbbbb

can she please be here now and i will cringe and laugh at this ep of animated batman i'm crying

but. really bad idea with her cause like office drama for next year??? no thanks. also it is first year in the program and i shouldn't do that OBVIOUSLY will not go good places.