i don't want to like herrrrrr we'd never work out and just. ANGRY SIGH!!!!

but i'm def jealous when it comes to her. and these past two nights i've been thinking horrible romantic fantasies of what i'd like to do. but. it's just so bad and inconvenient.

pretty sure she's nice to me only cause she's a nice person in general. and it's not like we've had any deep moments, even if basic things seem like a big deal to me.

i feel so idiotic so feeling this way. it goes against the state of things and is just a HORRIBLE idea and i know things wouldn't work out because because we're too different.

but she picked me up at the airport and listens to my rambles even when i'm anxious and not making sense and takes notes for me when i'm not in class and we have good conversation in the office

i'm too childish and easy. i'm probably. the easiest person to woo. and i feel dumb rn idk.

i'm legit upset but i know if i get myself rejected it'll just make things awkward and we have to share an office for at least another six month ughhhhhh

she's slowly started to sit closer to me in classes and doesn't ask for anything in return and doesn't mind the superhero babble. i'm just confused. it's like i'm taming a feral cat.