Deputy Minister of Education has posted the update on his FB so the news is most probably real.. Unless, there is a sudden change of AQI at night.

My main concern is, if the school is closed for a day, do we have to substitute it on Sat? Besides, we are running out of time to finish the syllabus and LINUS screening. As a realist, I don't like the news.

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That awkward moment, this is the second time after announcing schools being closed down in several states, the Air Quality Index goes down on that particular day.

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wtf this creepy guy..

I think he is one of the parents from our school's students. Live at the same lane I suppose coz saw him several times d on his motorcycle

Bo working eh I guess coz saw him during normal people eh working hours

All/Most of the time he does not wear tops even on the street.

Just now when I was on my way out the gate to tabao, he was at the other lane. It's normal to see people walking or standing while talking at the lanes.

But it's definitely NOT NORMAL to have some1 to stare/look at you when you open the gate, push your motorbike out and ride away.

Just 记录在案, if I was missing or got murdered. Find this guy. Physical appearances: Dark skin, between medium and fat size(wu bak you), about 30++ years old, bo wear specs, live near or at Taman ACBE, Lorong 23,

has a child / children/niece/nephew studying in SJK(C) Bahau, always bo wear tops(光着膀子）, jobless or working odd job etc

My housemate will be out for kursus and going at the weekend. I will be home alone for this week.

fuck that. spoilt my mood nia

当初刚到马口的那种吧不安全感又在泛滥。。、

Actions must be taken. Will take initiative to find out who the hell that is. and let my colleagues and next-door neighbours know. 知己知彼，百战百胜。 plus precaution should be taken.

The truth is, this danger awareness does not occur only after that one particular event. I could feel来者不善眼神 for a few times d.

I might be thinking too much. Anyhow, TTM is better than being oblivious.\

话说我那邋遢懒散的性格应该不会是完美主义者啊。但是，找图片时，总是拖拖拉拉，觉得接下来的“石头”会更大更美丽，更符合俺的需求。 >.<

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马口的指数好像比较接Pahang的，今天还满严重的，可是N9指数下降。。。。。。

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生理钟的紊乱，再加上因为如此“变态”的spbt阿头而得好几天留校做废到要死的spbt东东==

后两天的烟霾没课，大概我得至少回去一天弄spbt 的东东==

don't like wedding reception, get ready = 1/2 hour, transportation time=1/2 hour, waiting=1 hour, eat and wait for the dishes= 3 hours+. Total time used: 5 freaking hours

Morning gone back school students eh dance training, afternoon =wedding reception. Whole Sat gone.

Books left unmarked, house chores left undone.

That awkward moment when you have rested enough to start doing house chores, here came the water rationing wtf

without prior notification!

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First trial on zentangle

站在1米外咋看好像还不错，近看则。。。。。科科。

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大概只有我是不高兴明天学校关。。。。

看了挺感慨的。大叔虽然你说自己蠢，但是俺觉得你其实很聪明，加上一点小幸运。也许下个月的chiangmai之旅会有缘经过你的pun pun organic farm.
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OH NO..........................

This month's salary comes earlier, which I don't like earliness.

Paying all the bills just now. Officially off ptptn debt but I should have studied harder like kp, aiyo...

gosh. kedah and penang eh aqi very gai

This company is freaking cool Magic Leap

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90分～～ 國際中文水平測試

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Hectic as hell

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隔壁auntie有个漂亮的大女儿，可惜嫁错郎，丈夫没给家用就算了，孩子的支出、房租那些household的东东都是妻子出钱。

妻子兼职好几份工，家人都劝说离婚吧，但人啊就是犯贱。

auntie洋洋洒洒地说了好多。然后我突然发现了价值观上的分歧。

不懂什么时候开始，我一直以为上大学的费用啥的，应该都是自己借ptptn，不是父母的责任。身边的人也都这样啊，我就以为这是正常的。

结果听隔壁auntie 的说法，都是他们供college， 也认为是父母的责任。but 她的孩子有一个有借ptptn，却重考一年，每个月他们还得寄大概一千元的生活费。

明明父母都赚不多啊。我不好意思和auntie说，我和身边大部分的朋友，大学都几乎没用家里钱。

然后auntie表示亏欠第二女儿，因为那时供完大女儿念diploma后，家里实在凑不出钱供二女儿。我当时有点想说，不是全部都是你的责任好吗。

tertiary education的教育费，究竟是孩子还是父母的责任呢？我突然搞不清楚了。

往往看到某些例子，孩子仗着家里会供college, 可能有靠山，读书都很混，混到不及格得重考的那种，然后花钱也不需要想。=.=

家里有钱的就算了。有些，其实家里只是小康之家啊，或者再低一点我有点无言了。

昨晚重读了《寒门再难出贵子》，心里很是感触。

前几天道德节时，有个孩子，平常上课很lost, 因为基础没打好吧，常常blur blur不知道大家读到哪儿，在加上妈妈是泰国人，没办法教他，但他很乖巧没有纪律问题。

他说，他小时候（应该是baby的时候），哭的时候，爸爸觉得很烦，就用东西压他，妈妈劝说，却被扯头发。并透露爸爸酗酒和会讨钱之类的。

听了很心酸，也一时语塞不懂该怎么回答。

*再

More a comfort-zone type makes me hard to embrace changes.

Gotten into this field when tremendous changes have been pouring in. Foolish yet unproductive changes to be precise. Just when I was about to get the hang of A, here came the changes to B.

Do I regret getting in? I did think about it, every now and then. Do I? Did I make a wrong choice back then?

The workload is overwhelming sometimes. Brain turns numb doing tedious marking and some irrelevant documentation.

When I furiously scolded and caned those didn't hand in their homework or had some disciplinary prob. I did wonder if it was worth it. Yet, it's almost impossible for me to turn a blind eye and let it pass.

If I am given a choice, will I leave this field? Hell yes.

The obstacle is, of course, myself. It's a bit late to start elsewhere. Back to square one and start from the scratch.

From a not-so-comfort comfort zone, to the no-guarantees-and-full-of-uncertainties zone

With zero experience in other fields。。。the degree hold certainly serves no purpose.

That's why here I am, trying to grumble away the pek-chekness after overworking.

Can I work more efficiently? Hell yeah. Just care less and ignore more. Be more selfish and less selfless. Be more calm and less furious. Give less homework and give more leniency.

That's how the world works, sadly to say. Look around, you'll see.

Not saying we would have to change our nature. It's just we gotta protect ourselves and fend for ourselves before trying to help others.

How can we help when we're struggling in some point?

I used to offer helps, volunteerily at staffroom, when the elder co-workers ecountered IT prob. And then I noticed, how irresponsive some of the young co-workers were.

Normally the elder colleagues just yelled out the problems they faced starting with 為什麼不能。。。。。。

And usually there would be people answered or came to the pc and helped out.

Now if I'm rushing my workload, I don't respond either till I'm okay to deal with it or unless I'm free

Most of the time, I don't know how to solve it pun. I just tried this tried that.

google this google that

Why can't them do it too? The truth is some of them just look or a quick solution coz they don't want to spend their time. Yeah, they are taking advantages of others.

oh. did i mention how some they just pretend they dunno how to do or use something? Not all but definitely some.

All of us are flawed. I'm flawed.
Noticing all these tiny details make me question humanities. and think of the saying 人不為己，天誅地滅。

And how I gradually turn.