Sometimes, especially lately, it seems like I can't do anything right, despite my best intentions. I thought I could still engage in discussions here. I was wrong. It really will be just replurking posts now.

Maybe I failed, I can't live up to the example I look up to, or my own ideals. But rather than make things worse, I'm just going to step away. Karma will plummet, idec.

SashSplash ily

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don't feel bad for mistakes, don't think you failed. Mistakes is what makes us human, not only making them but learning from them, seeing the lesson in them.

and sometimes not seeing the lesson until the next time you cross the same thing, remembering what it has been before. You are awesome and you made it this far, you'll be fine!

chandnikhondji Thank you. But I refer back to "it's an unforgiving world." Thank you for saying I'm awesome, wish I believed it, wish more people did.

and I'm sorry if this all sounds "emo," I'm just being al, and I know someone's going to come in and criticize me for it. Not as much as if it were anon, lol, but...

screw people, if everyone would care for their own front door as much as others, the word would be a better place

world*

I totally feel you. I often wind up with people acting like I'm being some horrible person for daring to dispute things or speak my piece and it is rather disheartening. Like on one level I don't give a shit,

they don't know me so their absurd snap judgments of me mean nothing, but on another it's like, really, am I that different from everyone else that if I speak up about anything ever, this happens?! sigh

geekmonkey That's exactly how I feel, like "what's wrong with me that everyone else can say things, even horribly mean things, and it's ok, "everyone's entitled to their opinion" but if I say my piece, I'm

some awful person, or even if I just ask a question. And it's not even disputing, a lot of the time, it's like, a completely innocuous question/comment or even something positive like one time I said I was

sorry someone's mother was ailing and the person jumped down my throat because apparently "ailing" was too mild a term and I was crass for using it... I was just like, wow, well I redact my sympathies?? wtf

or like just now I gave kudos to someone and asked a simple question in response to another commenter, and next thing i know the OP is raging and deletes the plurk. And I'm like, wtf did I say wrong THIS TIME.

Or ya know, standing up against someone who promotes/allows someone to urge a person to kill themselves, I'm horrible for that. It's just like, I fucking give up. And I know "she" would be stronger, but idk

actually, because I don't think she ever experienced this, everyone loved her, so it's really hard to say what I'm supposed to feel/do right now. But my experience is to hide, it's all I know. :/

I'm being brave/stupid for even expressing these things.

just be yourself ... that's what we all do here.
i think

ManuelOrmidale That's what I have been, that's apparently the problem. >.<

Yeah I actually switched names here a few years ago because I was sick of how certain groups of people acted towards me. :/

geekmonkey Aww!

I don't know you very well but when I talked with you on SL it was a very pleasant conversation and I enjoyed it. So please don't step away, don't be too apologetic for who you are. It took you a long time to

be who you are, and it looks like you did a good job You can't please everybody, some people just need somebody to hate so they can feel better with themselves. But it looks like you have caring friends too

Aww, thank you, TitaniaHalasy, I appreciate that.

What TitaniaHalasy said! I only just met you, but clearly we have plenty in common and there are those of us who can totally empathize! Us outcasts gotta stick together! XD

geekmonkey

tbh and I don't mean this to sound... like it might sound... but I'm kinda surprised other people feel this way too...

and it's like people read the worst possible things into what I say, when I don't mean anything by it at all...

Wow...

I think your view on Plurk was extremely well-said.

I missed things like seeing Trompe's WIPs (haven't seen any of those) and thought it would be good for me to replurk & promote Eloquence's posts... but now I think that is SO not worth it.

Yes!

I have a private account where I can kinda keep up with my very closest friends who use Plurk but tbh most of my "real" friends don't even use it. I kinda feel like it's a stage for show-friendships.

or rather for popularity.

I'm sorry other people have to feel this way, none of us should, but thank you for speaking up, now at least I know I'm not alone, it's not "just me."

Oh god, yeah, don't even get me started on comparing to other people. I plurk my cat got hit by a car, not a single person replies. Someone else plurks her cat has a cold, everyone's all "aww poor kitty!"

wtf, that is dumb!

Plurk's whole setup doesn't help. I mean like, you can't share with just your friends or some of your friends without it being a) called a "clique" (I mean REALLY? how does that help) and being sent as a PP.

I really wish more people used, like, Google Plus. There at least I have more discretion about who sees what. I meant, ngl, I do miss the gifs. lol

Ick no, no google, google baaaad! XD But yeah I agree that the PP thing is stupid and irritating, a lot of people wish they'd fix that differently. :|

geekmonkey idk I'm a big fan of Google, idk if we can be friends! (j/k but really, you get my point, there are other social networks out there besides plurk)

XD

Do you know of any that aren't the big main ones (that imho, are junk)? Plurk is the only one I've ever actually enjoyed being on, of the solely social networking sites (like I use book sites etc, but

they all have some other "purpose" than just being chatty).

Right, I know what you mean. Well there are ones just for avatars and even just SL, though tbh I don't think they're great quality. idk...

Yeah, see, that's the problem. I'd have no problem using other platforms, I just, haven't found any that were worth using. :|

Well and it's hard if you do but nobody else is willing to use it...

I'm off to dinner, catch you later, thanks again for being awesome.

I just saw this and it made me think of you

chandnikhondji I LOVE THAT SONG!!! Thank you, I really appreciate that. And ManuelOrmidale I hope I didn't seem ungrateful for your response, I do appreciate it.

Yep, that too! Like literally no one on FB would even look over here when I said I was leaving but would be on here.