[RL] I know it's hard to cut someone out of your life.
Doing it for your own safety and health and all
But...tonight I feel really good that I have detached myself from this person
Like...it's always been heard for me to make such choices
*hard
mostly because my friends are my life blood and I would rather sit around and deal with hurt, pain and tears upon tears just to keep a friendship
Even when I know it's toxic
because it's hard for me to make that choie to take a break
mostly because...I don't want to lose my friends
I always had roblems keeping firends in school and would go through so much abuse and let myself be walked over
neglected myself just to remain friends for them
they came first
not me
and ....to finally make that choice on my own
just
omg it feels okay.
Like I'm sad, but...okay with it.
I kind of been through the same deal
especially since I never really had friends as a kid
but you did the right thing
Yeah as a kid, my friends were only my friends when they sad they were. And that was outside school
During school I was ignored, bullied by my friends and I kinda developed this...well it's just cause I'm not popular and they are, so they can't be seen around me at school
that's bullshit
...yeah and in middle school my best friend would stop being my friend until I talked to her posse and apologized for something I did and then we would be friends again
Like so recenlty like in the past years I've been losing friens because I've had to relearn who is good for me and who is shit