I reached the awake for days cant stop shaking point and was sanding off the tips of my fingers because this was too important and i realized wow im gonna end up hurting myself maybe i should calm the fuckdown
soooo i got to meet the crisis councilers here and they said get the fuck out of there being about 2 fuck ups away from shooting yourself in the head isnt normal. so now i get to vomit up my pride and beg for
befor anyone attempts to be comforting fuck off. this is my mess, im cleaning it up, this is a good thing compared to where i could be i do not want or need pity