my mother ran into the room terrified something had happened

I had no idea what happened, a nightmare or a hallucination, but I'm pretty sure I hit a C-sharp with my scream

my throat hurt after

I could still hear it in my head after waking up

I've never screamed before

at least not that high

I have so many nightmares. I should probably figure out what's up with that, huh

me and my mother were both physically shaking for a while after, I think we were both significantly freaked out

but I went back to sleep and I slept okay for the next three hours, so yay

wait... is C sharp the really high one? I just looked it up and I think I actually went higher than that

it was in the whistle register, for sure

like... that really fucking high note ariana grande can sing

it's kind of fascinating that a) nightmares can trigger screams, people who talk kinda low most of the time can suddenly scream at ridiculously high notes, c) screaming even exists

b ) **

actually there's also something freeing about screaming. like usually I talk loud (I'm told it's an autistic thing) but even if I was told it was okay to scream in a controlled environment I wouldn't do it

I squeak and squeal but I don't scream

the same way it's freeing to punch someone for the first time, it's freeing to scream

I just have such an appreciation for new experiences, idk