SORRY this plurk is getting angsty i'll get over this eventually youll see

anyway i'm going to therapy for the first time in prolly like three years and i'm nervous about it

i really hate going to therapy, but i have to make the moves to make myself feel better while i'm on an upwards swing cause otherwise when i'm depressed i wont do it

i've been fine lately, but i feel like i'm making mistakes? in what i say vs how i feel, and i can't tell if it's just

me being a different person from who i normally am, or people close to me being critical of me, but either way

therapy!!! yeah. gonna tastefully avoid saying that i haven't taken my meds in like two years.

if you want me to deal you some concerta i legit have it by the bucketful LMFAO no i'm kidding

i also bought ash flowers for saturday which i know doesn't fix any of our issues, but no one can say that i'm not trying they're really pretty flowers too.

these ones i think. i hope that she likes them at least huff.

those are lovely flowers

the gesture that you are thinking of her is definitely important and i think you are doing a very brave thing to see a therapist. i hope good things for you

tyty!! they're cute. i wish i had gone for something more colorful though ;u;

ahhh deedee you're so nice thank you very much

i'm not a therapist or anything but I am a very good listener ;u; if you ever need someone to just unload on, about anything I am always here for you!

UGH DUDE i will totally probably take you up on that sometime, thank you ;u; you are seriously wonderful even just offering is really sweet of you.

you can absolutely pp me any, any, any time you need to. Or if you'd prefer (or if it's easier) i'm pretty much always on aim at oresdee or skype at arbitraryally

life is hard and carrying our own problems is hard and everyone has them but sometimes it's nice to just be able to have someone share the load once in awhile, and I understand that so much.

a little late but you know I'm also always here pretty lady! just to listen or whatever. I'm glad your week is going better than expected and that you're able to see all that happening

and are in a place that you can work on making it better too

you're actively trying to make a change and that's really amazing!

ugh you guys are seriously marvelous I'm really lucky

I'm nervous about Saturday so expect lots of shaking and crying and more crying probably it would just be super awesome if things were okay huff huff